I'm totally bored. Okay well I'm not, but whatever. I barely ever write about anything anymore, because Australian Idol is only once a week and I have nothing...else...to write about it. I'm at home by myself listening to Melanie C's second self-titled CD that came out in June 2003. I have both of her solo CD's, she was my favourite from the Spice Girls and still is. It's at her song "Lose myself in you". I like being at home by myself, especially at night, then I can do whatever. There's nobody good on MSN, so I'm just talking to people who I only talk to when I'm bored.

I'm thinking about Jonathan right now. It's only about 75 days till I can start to think about him coming back. Well I think about him coming back all the time, but you know, till he actually DOES come back. YES SANDY'S ON!!

So anyways, I really do miss Jonathan. A lot of people think it gets easier as time goes by, but it seriously doesn't. And people don't really seem to understand how hard it is. I always go through my website archives to read what he's said, and I do think about him all the time. But I do make the best out of the situation though, I mean at least he's coming back soon and the days are going by really fast because I'm really busy with school and musical theatre and band and recording songs and watching Australian Idol and homework and stuff, so it's all good. There have been times recently that I've said to myself that I'm not going to make it, but I think that if I really try then I can. I'm keeping a scrapbook of all the things that I've written about him and things that I've made since he left, so I work on that when I can and I'm going to give that to him when he comes back, and I also keep a diary of the more personal things that I've written, and that's for him too.

I'm really tired so I'm going to go to bed now, but I'll just post some of the songs for this Sunday's Australian Idol show (Contestants choice) that I got from Inside Idol:

Marty: "Fly" by I think Shawn Smith or someone, it definitely is a song I know but I'm not sure if it's the same one.

Chanel - "Constant Craving" by Annie Lenox. I love this song. Channy's really mad that there won't be any BV's (background vocals) this week, so's Courtney, because it really helps with the song.

Courtney: Something by the Beach Boys that I know really well but I've heard this girl version of it but I love it and I think he'll do really well when he sings it, I think it's called "Without you".

Anthony - "The prayer" by Celine Dion and this Italian guy. I'm pretty sure I've heard it before, Anthony's singing it to show his Italian heritage, it has a lot of Italian in it.

Ricki: "I have nothing" by Whitney Houston. I. LOVE. This song. SO much. I love Whitney Houston, and Jennifer Hudson did SUCH a good version of this, I'm sure Ricki will do too, I'm really glad she's singing this.

As for Daniel and Hayley, I'm not sure because I couldn't recognize the tune while they were practicing and they don't actually tell you the name of it, you just hear it while they rehearse. Hayley's has something with the word "Ready" in it a lot, and as for Daniel, I can't remember at all.

I don't give about Casey. She's such a loser, when the other Idols were at the Piano writing a song about each other, she wasn't even there, and Chanel even wrote a verse about her! She doesn't like any of them, and she never hangs out with them during group hangouts or anything, she's such a loner and I hate her.

Courtney really misses his girlfriend, he spent like an hour and a half on the phone with her this week, sometimes not even saying anything, he was just really happy to have her on the line. That is so sweet, honestly, and he doesn't have any other family to turn to, that's so sad. I feel like I can totally relate to Courtney, I love him so much.

I miss Emelia. She was so nice.

Edit: Daniel's singing "Your song". I thought that's what it was, but I wasn't sure and I didn't want to say because that's such a big song and in case I was wrong then people would be mad.