Okay, so I talked to Calum on MSN today, and it went like this:

(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: hi, how are you?
Burt says: hey
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: i can't find a good display picture...that's the only one i have of Guy and it sucks
Burt says: o
Burt says: ic
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: i knew you were going to say that
Burt says: o
Burt says: lol
Burt says: why
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: lol because that's like all you ever say on MSN
Burt says: o
Burt says: lol
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: i can't wait till we go back to school it's gonna be so fun
Burt says: yeah sooooo much fun
Burt says: ...
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: what, you don't like school?
Burt says: o i love school i just like vacations more
Burt says: especially christmas
Burt says: :)
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: yeah it's fun...you are so lucky you still have another year left at Royal Oak, i'm seriously gonna hate leaving
Burt says: o
Burt says: it's a good school
Burt says: that's for sure
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: yeah...ms.robertson is probably one of the best teachers there, and she's also a really good friend
Burt says: i like school
Burt says: in her class
Burt says: how did your brother take the news about that person that died?
Burt says: my butt rox
Burt says: jk
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: oh well he was really upset that Norm didn't get to see the snow last night
Burt says: fdyha
Burt says: sorry my stupid cousin did that
Burt says: oh that sucks
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: yeah...i couldn't believe how much of it we got last night
Burt says: it was fun
Burt says: g2g
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: okay
Burt says: i have to go
Burt says: bye
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: bye

And then he kept pressing the space bar and hitting enter so there would be a blank space and finally I was like, "What are you doing?" and he wrote "dinner, cya" so then I wrote "okay bye". Norm is Jay's husband, and Jay is the woman that my brother Tim works for. Yesterday I was checking the messages on our machine and I got a message from Tim saying to call him at Melissa's house, and then I listened to the messages from Jay and her dad saying that Norm had died and that they needed Tim over there, but I thought Tim was at Melissa's house so I totally freaked out and called Calum and was like what am I supposed to do because I thought Tim wasn't at Jays and Calum didn't know what to tell me and then he had to go because he had company, but then he phoned me back like two minutes later to make sure I was okay about Norm and Jay, which was SO nice of him, really, and he said to phone Jay to see what she needed, and then he said about how sorry he was about Norm, and then we were talking about who won World Idol, which was Kurt Nilsen from Norway, and how good Elton John was at the show. I forgot to tell him that Victoria Beckham from Spice Girls performed at World Idol too, but never mind, I'll tell him next day.

And then later I found out that the message from Tim when he was at Melissa's house was from a few days ago at New Year's, and I had thought it was from the same day that Jay had phoned and that Tim was at Melissa's when he was supposed to be at Jay's, which is why I freaked out, you know? Okay I'm done, I just had to tell you that.

EEEK!!! Okay sorry, but I just talked to Calum, and first I said, "Okay, so the World Idol Results show, Elton John is going to be there, like performing" and he's like, "Oh really? That's really cool, he's awesome, I love Elton John" and I was like, "Yeah, me too" and then he said, "Hey, I was thinking, do want to start MSNing?" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like "Because I was thinking it would be like easier, like just in case I was in Vancouver, then we wouldn't have to worry about long distance, you know?" and I was like, "Yeah, that's a good idea" and he's like "And also, I'm not always near a phone, but I'm almost always near a computer, so like, we could talk on there, like just in case, you know?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Actually, I'm right by a computer right now" and I was like, "Oh yeah?".

And then he's like, "So what's your email?" and I told him and he's like "It says that it can't be added" and then he repeated the address to see if he got it right and he had but for some reason it wouldn't work, so he's like "Why don't you add me?" and I was like, "Yeah okay I just gotta sign in" and it was taking forever so I was like, "Yeah, I'm trying to sign in right now it's just taking forever, I have so many people on my list, I have like 132 people" and he's like, "You have 132 people on your MSN?! That's crazy!" And I was like, "Yeah I know" and he's like, "I don't have that many people, because I only just got it back, because my computer was like really crazy, and so I like just got it back, but I'm trying to add more people" and I was like, "Yeah" and then so I added him and he accepted me.

And then he was like, "So we can still phone each other, but it's like if someone needs to use the phone then we can like talk on here, and if someone needs the computer then I can phone you, or you can phone me, or whatever you know?" and I was like, "Yeah", and then we got off the phone and he came on MSN and I messaged him and this is how the convo went:

(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: hi
Burt says: Hello
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: you have no idea what "Ensani Ma Binsak" means, do you?
Burt says: no!
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: it's Arabic for "Forget me but I won't forget you"...it's the name of Diana Karazon's winning song in Lebanon Idol
Burt says: g2g
Burt says: bye
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: bye

And then he went offline and then I started talking to Adam, that guy from New Zealand who wants to be friends with Calum and me. Well me and him ARE friends but we're not sure about Calum yet. I mean me and Calum are friends, DUH, but what I mean is I don't know if Adam and Calum are friends, you know? But it is just so cool that now Calum is on my MSN which means that I don't have to phone him like all the time, not that I do anyways, but he said that he's almost always near a computer so we can talk more often on MSN then we do on the phone, although he said that he'll still phone me sometimes and I can still phone him and all that stuff, so. Only 2 days till World Idol results show and Guy BETTER win, seriously because if he doesn't I will seriously cry like I did with Carmen Rasmusen and Clay Aiken and Cosima de Vito...if Guy doesn't win I want it to be Jamai or Diana, but Diana probably won't win because her fan base isn't big enough, and I'm not sure about Jamai, but I don't need to worry about that because like I said GUY is going to win!!

Okay, so I just talked to Calum about an hour ago(I phoned him, he wasn't home, he called me back), and it was like this: I picked up the phone right, and was like, "Hello?" and he was like, "Hi" and I just wish you guys could hear the way he says 'Hi', it's so cool, and so then I was like, "Hi" and he's like, "Hi" and I was like, "Hi" and he's like, "How are you?" and I was like "Good" and he's like, "Oh yeah? How was your Christmas?" and I was like, "It was good" and then I was like, "So um, do you know like, any guys named Adam that are like, 17 years old?" and he's like, "No" and then so I was like, "Yeah, that's what I thought, because like, okay, this guy sent me this email today, right, and he said that he had been to my website, where like, I've written like, a tiny bit about you sometimes, right, and he wanted me to give him like, your phone number, and I like, wouldn't" and he's like, "Thank you very much, that's awesome" and I was like, "I don't know, it just like, kinda scared me" and he's like "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, it's so weird how you like, have these people" and he's like, "Yeah well, there are some people like that".

And then I asked him, "What do you do if someone calls you, like a lot, and sometimes you just don't want to talk to them?" and he's like, "I don't really know" and then so I was like, "Because there's like this girl, and she's kinda my friend, and she phones me every single day, and sometimes I want to talk to her, but it's really annoying" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, and sometimes, she phones like three times a day" and he thought that was so funny, and then I was like, "But I don't really want to tell her I don't want to talk to her, because that's kinda mean, and I like already lie to her, like if I don't want to talk to her anymore, I say I have to go when I don't" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "So what do you think I should do?" and he's like, "I don't know...that's a tough one...if it starts weird, then just like...I don't know, that's hard!" and then I was like, "And I know that's what it must be like with you, because I do phone you like, a lot" and he's like, "No, it's okay" and I was like, "Because that's why Alistair like, totally hated me, because I phoned him like every day" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "And I didn't know why he hated me until like, he left,and then there was nothing I could do" and he's like, "Oh" and then I was like, "So if I'm ever phoning you too much, you can just tell me to stop and I will" and he's like, "Okay, but you're seriously not phoning me too much at all" and I was like, "Okay, that's good".

And then I was like, "I haven't told you about Jordan yet, have I?" and he's like, "Who's Jordan?" so then I told him everything, and at the end of it all he's like, "So do you still like him?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Then tell him that" and I was like, "Yeah, I guess I should. I phoned Jordan last night, by the way, just to wish him Merry Christmas and to tell him to check the message that I left for him on his machine the other night.


And then I was like, "For Christmas, I got like, Clay's Cd" and he's like, "What?" and I was like, "Clay?" and he's like, "Oh" and I was like, "Like, Aiken? And I got Ryan Malcolm's, and I also got Ruben's" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "And I was really surprised that like, I got that, because like, no one knew that I wanted it, and when I did get it people were like, surprised because they like, thought I hated Ruben, which I did, like I totally used to, like when it was like him against Clay, I like totally hated him, but like, the stuff he sings now, is totally nothing like the stuff he did on the show", and he's like, "Yeah".

And then I was like, "That guy who emailed me, at first I thought it was Duncan," and he's like, "Well, he knows my phone number, so" and I was like, "Yeah I know, that's not what I meant, like I thought maybe it was him pretending to be someone else, like seeing if I would do it?" he's like, "Oh" and I was like, "Well, do you think he would do that?" and he was like, "Well I don't think it was him, he wouldn't do that, it's doubtful".

And then I was like, "Did you watch World Idol?" and he's like, "No, was it good?" and I was like, "Yeah it was, why didn't you watch it?" and he's like, "Oh, because I had lots of family over, so" and I was like, "My brother and sister were voting when they're like, not even interested in that kind of stuff" and he's like, "Voting?" and I was like, "Yeah, but they were like mostly making fun of everyone, and when they were watching it, during my favorite who wasn't singing in English, and during her whole performance, they were going hysterical at the language she was singing in" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "And they also hated my other favorite from Australia, and my other one from Netherlands they thought was gay, because he kinda looks like that" and he's like, "Yeah well, looks can be mistaken" and I was like, "Yeah I know, and they think that Clay's gay as well" and he's like, "Oh really?".

And I was like, "Yeah, because my dad bought me an Elton John CD for Christmas, right?" and he's like, "I love Elton John, he's so cool" and I was like, "Yeah I know, me too" and he's like, "He's so...he's...he's just awesome" and I was like, "I know, but my brother and sister think he's gay too" and he's like, "Well he is" and I was like, "Yeah I know, but that's why they hate him" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, like my brother said that I can't listen to it while anybody else is in the house" and he's all surprised and he's like, "Oh REALLY?" and I was like, "Yeah well, I'm not going to listen, but like when I tried to show it to them they're like 'No, get it away from us, that's horrible', and stuff like that it was so weird", and he's like, "Oh yeah".

And then I started saying like really freakish things because I couldn't think of anything to say, and then I was like, "Because you're not saying anything" and he thought that was funny and he's like, "Well my Christmas was good, I got a game cube, so it was cool...it was good, good Christmas", and I was like, "Yeah, so was mine".

And then I heard his mom say, "Dinner's ready!", and then he's like, "Okay, well I gotta get going, so I'll talk to you later!" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Bye" and I'm like, "Bye".

When I first phoned him and he wasn't home, I talked to his mom and it went like this: She said that he wasn't home but he would be in like two minutes he was just on his way, and she asked if she should get him to call me and I said yes, and she was like, "So does he have your phone number?" and I was like, "Yeah he does" and she's like, "You know what? I'm just going to take it down again, things have been really crazy in this house, you know" and I was like, "Oh yeah" so I gave it to her again, and after I was laughing because both her and Calum and his dad use the word crazy for everything and I was like, "These people and their crazyness!" and I had talked to her at like 7, and it was like 7:30 and he still hadn't phoned yet so I totally thought he wasn't going to, but he did at like 7:40, so I was really happy, because no one was home and I was blaring Clay Aiken's CD so it was all good.

After Clay I watched some Powerpuff Girl episodes on our new DVD player with my new PPG DVD, so that was fun, and then I listened to Ryan and his CD rocked too just like Clay's. I wonder if I should tell him that I like the Powerpuff Girls? Probably not, he'd be like "Freak". Oh darn it, I forgot to ask him if he considers us friends, but it's kinda obvious he probably does because why else would he talk to me and phone me?

Anyway, I have to put on the Narrator, and plus my mom wants to go on to transfer pictures from our digital camera onto the computer, because she just took some pictures of my cat and my sister and me being freaks, so.

Okay, so we just finished opening presents a while ago, and I got some really cool stuff. I got 3 DVD's, because Father bought us a new DVD player, and my DVD's were: Powerpuff Girls(YES, I do like them), Spy Kids 2:The Island of Lost Dreams, and The Witches. I got some chocolates and a Narnia book from my mom(C.S.Lewis), and a T-Shirt from my sister, a tape from my brother so I can record World Idol tonight, and a scarf from my mom, and from my dad I got 3 Cd's: Elton John(Goodbye Yellow Brick Road), Ryan Malcom(Home), and Clay Aiken(Measure of a Man). It really surprised me that I got Ryan's CD from my dad, because that's what I had asked my sister Melissa for, so I thought I was going to get it from her, but then just listen what happens next.

So then Melissa comes over, and gives me her presents, and I could see one of them was a CD, and so of course I thought it was Ryan's but I open it, and it's RUBEN'S!! I totally freaked out because I had no idea how she knew that I wanted that, and plus I never thought I'd get it like I said yesterday, so then I asked her how she knew, and she said that a little elf told her, so of course I know that means my mom. I don't know how my dad knew that I liked Elton John, probably because I listen to the Ocean all the time, which plays stuff like that. Patrick and Teresa totally freaked out at the CD because they both think he's gay, which he is, but that's okay, and Patrick told me that I was never allowed to listen to it around anyone in the house, but I was like whatever, so. I'm listening to "Soulful" right now it's so cool, my bro Tim is going to love it he loves rap and this is what that is, totally.

And then I opened my other stuff from Melissa, which was a V-neck t-shirt which is blue, which is cool, and also she got me a Canadian Idol T-Shirt, which is really cool because I'm totally gonna wear it to school I don't care what people say, and then I'm wearing right now.

I got up first at like 8, and then I went on the computer, and then at like 10 I went into my mom's room and watch Much's Most Wanted: Top 20 hottest guys of the year. Jake Gellyenhall was #10, he's from the movie October Sky which me and my mom really like, and Orlando Bloom was number 9, and he's cool, and Ashton Kutcher was #3, and I guess he's allright but I don't really like him that much, and Justin Timberlake was #1, which really sucked because he is SO not hot. Clay should've been number 1 but he wasn't even on the list! He is so going to be next year. Last night they had the top 20 girls, like Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen were #18, and I'm not sure if Hilary Duff was on the list because I didn't finish watching it, but she probably wasn't because she hasn't really been around for that long, even though she's been like everywhere over the past year, so she might've been, I don't know.

And now Ruben's singing, "Flying Without Wings", which of course was his winning song, and of course it's awesome. If you guys think I don't like Clay anymore, you're such a lie. I totally do, and I'm totally going to listen to his CD later, I just like Ruben all of a sudden now, because his new style is so awesome, and I know that Calum doesn't like him, but I'm sure if he heard this new CD he would, so I have to like force him to listen to it, because you all know I can do that, right? I have to phone him tomorrow to tell him all what of I got. Calum I mean, not Ruben. I know I'm not making any sense right now, but that's because it's all so of Christmas, so I like totally wouldn't be, you know? I have to ask Calum if he considers us friends, because if he does that would so cool, because then we could be like Lizzie and Gordo, except there would be no Miranda, but you know we don't need one because it like totally doesn't matter.

And now Melissa is like totally dumping chocolates on me from my bag, but that's okay. Ruben is almost over. Okay, in the book I'm reading, "Charlie Wilcox's Great War", which is the second Charlie Wilcox book, Charlie tells Claire about the expression, "Carpe Diem", and later she tries to say it but she says "Crap Demon", and when I read that I was going so hysterical because it was just so funny. Darn it, now I can't move the mouse because it's covered with chocolates. I have to go to the bathroom, and when I get back the chair will be gone, so I should go. World Idol at 8 on CTV(Channel 9)!!

Okay, so I just came back from my dad's friend Celeste's house, and I played with her kids and stuff, so that was fun. And now I'm listening to Ruben Studdard, "Sorry 2004", from his new album "Soulful", which I really want, but I really doubt I'm gonna get it for Christmas, because my mom really hates Ruben, so. I already know some of the things I might be getting: Clay's CD, Ryan's CD, and People Magazine with Clay on the cover. I know for sure I'm getting the magazine because I saw my mom buy it for me. I phoned Jordan today but he wasn't home so I left a message saying Merry Christmas and I was sorry for messing everything up. I don't really know why I said that when I didn't even do anything, but there's no way HE's gonna apologize, because he just doesn't do that.

Now I'm listening to Diana Karazon, "Ensani Ma Binsak". She's the winner of Lebanon Idol, and I really want her to come in second in World Idol, but she probably won't because she doesn't sing in English(She sings in Arabic), and most people want to be able to understand what the contestants are saying, and then there's all those racist people out there, but I like foreign music so it's all good.

I wonder what Calum's doing right now? Probably just hanging with his parents and talking about what Christmas is gonna be like tomorrow. I wonder what it IS going to be like for him? He's so lucky he doesn't have any brothers or sisters, it must be so cool, it being just like him and his mom and his dad, because I've talked with his dad a few times, and he's awesome.

I just got $50 from my grandparents for Christmas money, so after Christmas I might buy myself another CD(with my report card money I bought Hilary Duff, "Metamorphasis"), and get my hair done like Hilary Duff, which is layered bangs and layered hair. It should be fun. I have to put the Narrator on now to see what this sounds like. I'm not sure if I'll be on to write tomorrow, it being Christmas and World Idol and all, but I'll come back if I can!! Merry Christmas and Happy World Idol ya'll!

Okay, so I just phoned Calum(I didn't MEAN to, it was an accident!), because I was talking to one of my CI message board friends on MSN, and I sent her a file of me singing, and she totally freaked out and said how awesome it was and she totally wanted more, and I was just like so totally excited and happy that I just ran over and picked up the phone and started dialing, and then I realized I had phoned Calum, and then his dad answered and I was like, "Is Calum home?" and he's like, "Ah yes, he's right here!" and then like two seconds later Calum came on and he's like, "Ahoyhoy!" and I could totally tell they were having fun, and I was like, "Hi, um, I know you probably don't want to talk to me right now, but um, I just wanted to tell you, I was talking to this person on MSN, right, and I like sent her, like a file thing, of my singing, and she said it was really really good" and he's like, "Oh really? That's awesome!" and I was like, "Yeah, and I was just like so happy, that I just like, picked up the phone, and just like started dialing like, numbers, and like, I just like, called you, even though I know I wasn't supposed to" and he's like, "No, it's okay, no worries" and I was like, "Okay, that's good" and he's like, "But I have to go, to eat my dinner" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "So I'll talk to you later" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Okay bye" and I was like, "Bye". I am SO not phoning him tomorrow, even though I planned to, I can't do it now because I JUST DID!!

I'm still talking to that person I sent it to, and I'm sending her more stuff and she thinks they're all great and she keeps telling me how good I am which is making me really happy because people don't EVER say that to me!!

I don't really know WHY I phoned Calum just to tell him that, probably because, like I said, I don't hear that a lot so it's good to know I might have a chance at living my dream, you know, and plus there's the fact that I was so happy I just couldn't control myself and I just picked up the phone like a freak and plus I wanted him to say it was awesome which he DID which is good because HE is so incredibly AWESOME!! The American Idol Christmas Special is replaying in half an hour if anyone wants to watch it it's on CTV at 9pm, and World Idol is in TWO DAYS!! MERRY CHRISTMAS YA'LL!!!

Okay, so I think I might phone Calum on Christmas Eve, I don't really know why, just to say Happy Christmas and to talk and stuff, and I need to tell him about Jordan and ask him what I should do about this freak problem that we're having, because Jordan says he still likes me but I'm not sure, so I just want things to be like they were before, like when we said "I love you" to each other like all the time, which he hasn't said to me since September the 1st, the day before we went back to school and everything got messed up, which was like 3 months ago, and it's getting really annoying that nothing's happening, so I thought maybe Calum could fix it. Or something...like that. And then I need to tell Calum about what presents I got for people and we can talk about World Idol and who we're going to vote for and stuff like that and what we're doing on Christmas and stuff like that...okay, I don't really have much more to write so I think I'll go now, my sister Teresa is here from Vancouver and we're watching Home Alone(I'm not sure if it's the first movie or the second movie, I'll never watch the 3rd one because it doesn't have Macaulney Culkin or whatever his name is in it, and plus it doesn't have the same bad guys, so I'll totally hate it).

Okay, I just got back from a two day trip, I have to tell you what happened:

Friday: I sang karaoke at the school dance, they didn't have Hilary so I did Britney Spears, "From the bottom of my broken heart", and it was fun, some people thought I was really good and others told me I should learn to sing in English, but whatever, they can be derks about it, I really don't care. Calum said that I was good, but he didn't hear all of it because he went downstairs to the dance(the karaoke was in the lunchroom). And after I sang I talked to him, and he said about how he has to know people for a really long time before he can hang out with them outside of school, and then I phoned him later that night at Sarah's mansion house, and it turns out he thought I meant that I wanted to hang out outside of school, and then I told him that wasn't what I meant, and then finally he understood I meant AT school. And then I was like, "But it seems like you're too good for me" and he's like, "No, that's not it" and then I was like, "You're Calum, man!" and then he thought that was funny, and then Sarah kept chucking stuffed animals at me so I started chucking them back and we were going hysterical it was so hard to talk properly, and then I was like, "So is it that you DON'T want to hang out with me?" and he's like, "No" and I was like, "So you do?" and he's like, "Yeah sure, like whatever" and then I said to him later, "Like, you know how you said that you didn't care if you hung out with me or not?" and he thought that I was getting mad at him so he's like, "No, it's not that" and I was like, "No, I mean like, you said it wasn't a problem right?" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "But like, how would we do that?" and he's like, "What do you mean?" and I was like, "Well, I'm not used to like, arranging these kind of things" and he's like, "What do you mean?" and I was like, "Well, it's like, we have messed up lunchtimes, so how would we do this?" and he's like, "Well there's still like, recess" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "I don't know, things'll just like, fall into place, you know?" and I was like, "Yeah" and then he had to go, so he was like, "Yeah, I gotta go now, so, I'll talk to you in the New Year right?" and I was like, "Yeah okay" and he was like, "So, we can talk then?" and I was like, "Yeah, sure", and then he was like, "Okay bye" and I was like, "Bye". So now I can't talk to him till January 1st, which is the results show of World Idol but that's okay because then I have lots to tell him.

Saturday: I got up early, took the 11am ferry to Abbotsford, drove for 2 hours to the Best Western Hotel, then we went swimming in the hotel pool, and then we went to the hotel restaurant, and then we went to the best concert of all time: DAKONA!!! They're this band that kinda sounds like Our Lady Peace if you know who they are, and we got to go backstage and meet them, and I spent most of my time talking to the drummer who's really hot and he's my favourite, and we got photos and all their autographs, and the main guy, Ryan, kept looking and pointing at me during the concert it was really cool. We went back to the hotel and went to sleep after watching Dilbert.

Sunday: We got up at like 9, left the hotel at 11 because we had to, and went to a mall in Langley, and bought some stuff for Sarah's little brother Patrick, then we drove to the ferry and caught the 1pm, and me and Sarah got some pictures taken in the booth of us with a seal, it was really cool imaging thingyness...whatever that means, I don't know. So we got back to my house at like 3:15, and I downloaded some Dakona songs, and now I'm writing this and talking on MSN to one of my Tyler Hamilton fan friends from the Canadian Idol board who emails me a lot, and I really want to put on the narrator so it can read this out, so I have to go now. Ahoy!

Okay, so I talked to Calum after school today, because he wasn't there for the morning because of acting, and I asked him if he opened his locker, and he was like, "No" and I was like, "Oh, because there's something in there" and he's like, "Oh really, there is?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he was like, "Is it open?" and I was like, "No, but there's something in there" and he's like, "Okay" and then so he leaves, and then I come home today, and he phones me, and he's like, "I got your note, and it's just like, I'm like, really busy like, until the new year, so maybe, we could like, talk in the new year?" by talk I think he means hang out or something because we're talking right NOW, and I was like "Okay" and then he's like, "It takes like, a really long time for me to get to know people, like sometimes it takes like, a year" and then I was like, "Yeah, it's like, the same with me".

And I was like, "I really wanted to talk to you today, but I like, couldn't find you" and then he's like, "Yeah, I wasn't there" and I was like, "Because like, this whole week has been like, really crappy" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "And then, like, after lunch, I just like, started crying because I just like, couldn't take it anymore" and then he's like, "What?" and then I was like, "I don't know, it's just like okay, on Monday I was upset because I didn't get to hang out with you, and then on Tuesday my dance class was messed up because the guy like wouldn't even like, look at me, and then on Wednesday my Neopets account got messed up, and then today my dance class got messed up again, and it was my last class, so I wanted it to be fun" and he's like, "Oh yeah, I hate those days" and then so I went to go see the counsellor, and then I came back, and I was okay" and he's like, "Oh yeah? That's awesome!".

And then I was like, "Yeah , but I think I was like, a little too okay, because when I got back I was like really hyper, and I kept calling everybody a bumcrack" and he was like, "What's that?" and I was like, "I kept calling everybody a bumcrack" and he's like, "Haha, really?" and then I was like, "And then I kept talking about bumcrack Idol, because I like Canadian Idol and American Idol and stuff" and he's like, "Oh yeah?" and then I was like, "Do you like those shows?" and he's like, "Oh yeah, they're great" and I was like, "So what about World Idol?" and he's like, "Oh yeah, that's gonna be really cool" and I was like, "So do you like Ryan Malcolm?" and he's like, "What?" and I was like, "Ryan Malcom, do you like him" and he's like "He's okay" and I was like, "Oh yeah" and he's like, "But I like Clay Aiken" and I was like, "Oh yeah, me too" and he was like, "I don't like Ruben...well he's okay, but I like Clay Aiken best out of all of them" and I was like, "Me too".

And then I asked him, "You know how that time when I said that we should hang out, and then you phoned me?" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and I was like, "Well, did you know what I meant when I said that?" and he's like, "No, I wasn't sure" and then I was like, "You weren't sure if I liked you, were you?" and he's like, "No" and then I was like, "Well, what would you do if you found out that I did?" and he's like, "I don't know, I'd probably be like thanks, that's really cool" and then I was like, "Okay, and what if you found out that I didn't?" and he was like, "Um...I don't really know" And then I was like, "Because I know the answer, I just don't know how to tell you" and he's like, "Oh yeah, I get that too sometimes" and then I was like, "Because it's like, when I talk to people I don't like, I can just talk normally, but with you, it's like, I can't even say a sentence properly" and he's like, "Oh yeah".

And I was like, "So um...I think I might" and he's like, "Oh, okay cool" and then he said about how he didn't really like anyone right now, so it wasn't just me, but he said it wasn't that he didn't like me he just had to get to know me first, and so I said to him "So, you don't wonder why I talk to you, do you?" and he's like, "No, not really" and I was like, "Do you even care?" and he's like, "Do I care about...what? If you talk to me?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Yeah, I do", which is good, because at least he wants to talk to me.

And then I said to him, "We're probably not going to see each other, like at all next year" and he's like, "Oh, you mean when you move to Claremont?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Yeah well, you never know" and then I'm like, "And we're probably never going to be able to hang out, like ever" and he's like, "Well, why not?" and I was like, "Because you don't have time for stuff like that!" and he's like, "Yeah, I do, we just have to keep trying to set something up" and so I think that's a good sign that he still wants to talk to me.

Oh my god, I just realized something...I'm going to the dance tomorrow, so is he! I'm doing karaoke...I can do Hilary Duff because I just bought her CD so I know the words to "So Yesterday"! I can use that as a way to impress him, because you know, he sings too. Jeeze Murphy, what am I going to wear! EEK I have to go now and decide!!

Oh my god, I am SO mad at Stephanie!! She knows my Neopets password, and she said she would only use it for good purposes, but guess what she did? FIRST, she renames all my petpets, and then, she decides she's going to create a new account for me with rare pets, but that's not the bad point, the thing is, I had 888,000np which she had PROMISED not to touch, and she moves 200,000 into this new account!! God, she is SO STUPID!!! And then so I try to go back into my other account to move them back, and it says "Sorry, you have tried too many times to guess this password for today!" which means that she had been trying to get back in, probably to move MORE neopoints, but she kept messing up the password, which now means that I can't get into it before TOMORROW, by which time she could've done ANYTHING!!! Holy Ryan Malcom!! And before she had done this, she had already been buying me stuff which I didn't want her to do, and collecting the stuff from the advent calendar before I got home, which is the thing I look forward to the most about Neopets, and she completely ruins it for me by doing it first!! I have no idea what I'm supposed to do, aside from beat the hell out of her tomorrow! Ugh, I'll be back tomorrow to tell you what happened...oh PS I saw Lord of the Rings 3, and I left a note in Calum's locker.

Okay, so I just talked to Calum again(Ugh, I am such a loser), and he wasn't really doing much, but we didn't really get to talk much, only for like 10 minutes, and my cat was killing me, or at least she was trying to, so then I told him that, and he's like, "Oh really, crazy!" and then she jumped on my back like totally dug her claws into me, and I told him that, and he's like, "Oh really? That must hurt." and I told him about when we had like 15 cats sometimes it got hard because they like all came after you sometimes, and he's like, "Yeah, that must've been crazy!" and then I said that I liked cats, but it was actually better, when I had a dog, and he's like, "Oh really? Are they easy to keep?" and I was like, "Yeah, mine got sick last year, she had diabetes, so we had to get her put down" and he's like, "Oh really? That's sad" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "That's too bad that that happened" and I was like, "Yeah" and then I was saying about how when we had like 15 cats and like 10 rabbits it was so hard sometimes because we had to like, spend a lot of money on them, and he's like, "Oh yeah, that must've been, like, really expensive" and then I threw my cat off my back and said that I was going to leave my room and go somewhere else, and he's like, "Yeah, that's probably a good thing, to do".

And so I was walking upstairs and I was like, "So, what did you do today?" and he's like, "Well, I went to school, and came home, and that's all, really" and then I was like, "So, what do you think, of our school?" and he's like, "Oh, I think it's great" and I was like, "Yeah, it's okay, but like, some of the people, I kinda get the feeling that they're not like, acting like themselves, they're being who other people want them to be" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, it's like, mainly like, the popular girls" and he's like, "Oh yeah? I haven't really come across, those type of people yet" and then I was like, "And it's really annoying when there's like popular grade 7's like, being snobby to you, and you're like older than them, right?" and he's like, "Oh yeah, well, I'll probably see that next year".

And so I was like, "But there's a lot of good teachers, in grade 8" and he's like, "Oh really? Like, a lot of good ones?" and I was like, "Yeah, like Mr.Levere, who's one of the science teachers," and he's like, "Oh yeah" and I was like, "He's really nice, but when he gets mad, he like gets REALLY mad!" and he's like, "Oh yeah?" and then I was like, "Like for the past few days in Mr.Melnyks room, we've heard him yelling like SO loud, and he like NEVER yells" and then he was like, "Can you hold on a second" and then he came back on and he was like, "I have to go eat dinner now, but I will talk to you later" and I was like, "Okay" and then he was like, "Okay bye" and I was like, "Bye." That was such a waste of a conversation, seriously. I didn't even get to ask him if he watches any Idol shows, man.

Mrs.Robertson knows I like him, I don't know how, I asked her to guess who I liked, and I said he was in grade 7 and in Concert Band, and she's like, "Calum?" and I was like, "Oh my god how did you know?" and she's like, "You like red-heads!!" which is kinda true and plus she's my best friend so it wasn't exactly that hard for her to find out, but still, it's freaky that she knew on the first guess. I think I'll put the narrator on again now.

Okay, so I talked to Calum again yesterday, and this time I seriously didn't phone him, he phoned me, and I like totally freaked out, because I like never thought he would. And then so he was like, "You know how you said that we should like, hang out sometime?" and I was like, "Yeah" and then he was like, "Well that would be like, really cool, and I really want to do that, but I was thinking like, not yet, you know what I mean?" and then so I was like, "Not really" because I totally didn't get what he meant, so I was like, "What did you think I meant when I said that?" and he's like, "What did you mean?" and then I was like, "I actually don't know" and then he's like, "Are you okay?" and then I was like, "Yeah..." and then he was like, "Well, I wasn't really sure, like I thought maybe you liked me" and then I was like, "Okay..." so then he's like, "Okay, can I like, take whatever I just said back, because I feel really stupid now" so then I was like, "Okay" and then he kept saying about how he totally felt really stupid and like a jerk, but I don't really know why he felt that way, I mean all he did was misunderstand what I meant when I said, "Hang out" he thought I meant, "Go out", which is perfectly understandable.

So then he was like, "Could we like, hang out at school, because I really want to do that" and then I was like, "Yeah, that's what I meant" and then finally he understood, and then I went into my sisters room which is where I always went to talk to Alistair, and then I was like, "I'm back at home now, because I haven't been here for like, two days" and then he's like, "Oh yeah, did you have fun at your sleepover?" and then I was like, "Yeah" and then he's like, "That's good" and then I was like, "But it was really weird, because my friend got mad at me, and then she kept like, chucking toilet paper at me" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, she was like getting rolls of toilet paper, and like, chucking them at me" and he's like, "Whoa, that's crazy!" and then I was like, "And then we were in my room, like it's this part by her closet, right, and then we were chucking stuffed animals down the stairs, and it was really fun" and he's like, "Oh really? That's awesome!" and then I was like, "And she was pretending that they were people, like she would pick up these bears, right, and then she'd be like, 'Okay, this is you, and this is Calum' and then she would throw them down the stairs, it was really weird, seriously" and then he asked me like where do I usually hang out, and I was like, "Usually in the field, but I work in the library on Friday" and so he's like, "Okay, so I'll see you in the field tomorrow?" and I was like "Okay" and then he's like, "Okay cool" and then I was like, "Bye" and he's like, "Bye". He kept saying that I was an awesome and great person, and one time during the conversation he's like, "And I really want to hang out with you, cause you're awesome!" And that was really cool because no one's ever said that to me before, especially not a guy.

But then we actually didn't get to hang out today because our lunch times are different and by the time he came outside I had to go inside, so I'm probably gonna phone him tonight to see if we can reschedule to a time where we're both more available. He's really awesome, and I want to do everything I can to keep things cool.

Okay, so yesterday I talked to Calum again(I spent another night at Sarah's house), and this time he was watching Charlie Brown Christmas, which is so totally different from what he was watching before, which was American Pie 2, and then I asked him like isn't that movie kind of gross, and he's like no not really it's hillarious, and I was like, "But isn't there like, one part in the first movie where he like does something to the pie?" and he's like, "Yeah, that was kinda gross, but that was in the first movie" and then so I was like, "Yeah isn't there like, this part in the second movie, where these two girls are like, doing something?" and he's like, "Well, what were they doing?" and I was like, "What were they doing? Um...okay, you know what? Never mind, that is just TOO disgusting to talk about!" because there was like NO way I was gonna tell him what they were doing, if he didn't see, well that's good for him.

Oh, and when we first got on the phone it was so funny because he's like, "Hello?" and I'm like, "Hi" and he's like, "Oh hi" and I was like, "How are you?" and he's like, "Who is this?" and I was like, "Um, it's Rebecca" and he's like, "Oh hey how ya doing?" and I was like "Good, how are you?" and he's like, "I'm okay". And then I was talking about how me and my brother always sit around making fun of people, and he's like, "Oh you do? That's crazy!" and then I asked him if he had a sister and he said no, and I asked if it was just him, and he said yeah, and then I said that's what I thought. And then I asked him if he had any pets, and he said 2 cats, and then I told him all the pets that I had, and he's like, "Whoa, that's crazy!" and then I told him about how I used to have 15 cats and like 10 rabbits, and he's like, "Whoa, really? That's crazy!" and then I sat on a talking toy again like I had done the night before, and so I told him, and he's like, "Oh yeah, you did that last night didn't you?" and I was like, "Yeah I always do that!" and I told him about how I was still at Sarah's house because I didn't really want to talk to him at my house but I really didn't know why.

And then he's like, "I have to have my dinner now, because we like, just got back" and I was like, "From where?" and he's like, "Singing recital" and I knew I had to say it then or else I wasn't going to, so I was like, "You know how I asked you earlier if you ever had time to like, hang out with people?" and he's like, "Yeah" and I was like, "Well, would you ever be able to like, hang out with me sometime?"(The main person he hangs out with is Duncan Polson, and if I don't watch out I could have the whole Alistair Young thing going here) and he's like, "Sure" and I was like, "Okay that's good" and he's like, "So if I don't talk to you tomorrow, I'll talk to you on Monday!" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Okay bye" and he's like, "Bye". I have the narrator on right now, and it's so funny because I can get it to read out everything I say, and I have to tell Calum tomorrow about it, and I bet you anything he's gonna be like, "Oh really? That's crazy!" Oooh, I forgot to say this, at the beginning of the conversation Sarah was making fun of me so I was like, "My friend's making fun of me because I'm calling you, but that's because SHE's too scared to phone up the person that SHE likes...OOPS, I shouldn'tve said that!" and he thought it was funny, which totally freaked me out because no one EVER laughs at my jokes, so he must've really thought it was funny!

And then there was the part even earlier in the conversation when I said that Sarah said not to phone him because he would think I was like, a stalker, and he's like, "Oh yeah, well no you're not" and then she said that I was like totally obsessed and I told him that, and he's like, "Oh yeah, well no you're not", which is nice of him. I hate to say this, but I think he might actually like me! I just HAVE to tell him about how Sarah kept throwing toilet paper into my room at her house(the open closet space), and about how we were playing with stuffed toys and pretending they were people like him and Jordan and Alistair, and I serisouly bet he'll be like, "Oh really, you were? That's crazy!" He thinks everything is crazy, seriously. It would be so funny if I went up to him and was like, "Hey Calum, you're hot", and he was like, "Really? That's crazy!".

Just so ya'll know, his name is pronounced KAY-LUM, not CAL-UM, okay? I keep saying it wrong! Oh, and PS, I phoned Jordan, it's his birthday and I thought it would be nice, but he spent the whole time shooting his brother with his new dart gun. Freak. Calum is like the new Alistair Young of my life, man. But the only thing is, Duncan knows the address to this site, and if he tells Calum and he goes, I am SO dead because he'll read all this and be like, "Oh my god, this is crazy!". I am NOT calling him tonight, or else he'll think I'm obsessed, which he doesn't, and I'd like to keep it that way. I'll phone him tomorrow so I can have more things to tell him. I so totally cannot WAIT to hang with him. That is, if I do. Which he says we will. I think. Hopefully. Okay seriously, shut up now. Make me. SHUT UP!! Fine, be like that, Mr.Ryan Malcom wannabe!! Don't ask.

Okay, so I just remembered a few more things that me and Calum said last night, and I forgot to right it last night, and so I'm writing it now. Okay, so there was the part right after he picked up the phone and I accidentally sat on a talking toy, and Sarah started going hysterical, so then so did I, and I kinda had to tell him why, so I was like, "Okay, I just SAT on a talking toy!" and he's like, "Oh, you did?" and I was like, "Yes, and now it's talking to me, and I'm scared." and then when we were talking about how I didn't just like him because he was a movie star, I was like, "So, you know when I was talking to you today?" and he's like, "Yeah" and I was like, "I probably sounded like, really messed up, because I get so nervous when I'm talking to people I don't usually talk to, and I like, can't even say a sentence properly" and he's like, "Yeah, I get that feeling too sometimes". Oh, and me and Sarah's family were talking last night, (Me, her dad, her brother, and her) and we decided that I am now part of the Ehle family. I call her Dad dad, it's so funny, I wake up in the morning, and I'm just like, "Hi dad" and he's like, "Hi other daughter". I'm so happy to be Bek Ehle. Calum Ehle. Rebecca Grace Ehle. Calum Ehle Worthy. Calum Worthy-Ehle. Bek Worthy. Rebecca Worthy. Whatever, it's all good.

Okay, so I talked to Calum, again tonight, I phoned him, because I didn't know if he had phoned me because I'm at Sarah's house again(the big mansion one). So anyway, he picked up the phone and said hello, and then I was like, "Calum?" and he's like, "Yeah?" and I was like, "It's me, Rebecca" and he's like "Oh hi" and then I was like, "How are you?" and he's like, "I'm good, how are you?" and then I was like, "I'm good too." and I was like, "What are you doing?" and he's like, "Watching American Pie 2" and he said that he's seen the 1st one but not the second one and then I told him about how I don't watch stuff like that and he's like, "Oh." And then we were talking about what it was like to be an actor, and he said sometimes it's hard because you have to get the part, and then I was like, "So are you like, wondering why I'm like, talking to you?" and he's like, "No not really because my dad, kinda told me a bit" and I was like, "Oh really so what did he say?" and he's like, "Well he said that you saw my movie, and stuff" and then I was like, "Okay, but like, I'm not like one of those people who talks to people, like just because they're in movies or whatever", and he's like, "Oh yeah I know that", and I was like, "Okay that's good" and then we were talking about his new movie Daisy Winters, which is due out in Febuary, and he said it's about a girl who's mom is dying of cancer, and she does die, and he plays her BOYFRIEND. And I was like, "So do you think it's gonna be fun?" and he's like, "Oh yeah it's gonna be REALLY fun!" and I wanted to get really mad but then I didn't.

And then I said, "So you're in Mr.Chambers' class right?" and he's like, "Yeah, so what class are YOU in? and then I was like, "Mr.Cafley's" and he's like, "So is he good?" and I was like, "Yeah, but like sometimes he gets mad, because he lets us have fun, but then he gets mad at us for having fun!" and then he's like, "Oh, that's kinda weird." and then he's like, "So who do you think is the best teacher in grade 8?", and then I almost said Mr.Melnyk, but then I was like, "Ms.Robertson, because I'm like, in band", and he's like, "Yeah, I am too", and then I was like, "Yeah, I saw you at the concert on Tuesday, I was there" and he's like, "Yeah, so, what instrument do YOU play?" and I was like, "Clarinet" and he's like, "Yeah I like that instrument, my dad used to play it" and I was like, "Oh". So then we talked about the play that we went to, and he said about how when the lion died it was kinda weird because they were all crying even though they had just met him like 5 minutes ago, and I agreed, and then I told him about how a girl in grade 8 was going out with the actor who played Edmond, and he's like "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah it's so weird" and then I was like, "My friends think it's kinda weird for me to be talking to you when you like, don't even know me" and he's like, "Yeah, well I know you now, so it's not weird".

And then we were talking about Harry Potter, and he said he really liked it, and I said that I did too, but he hasn't seen the second one and he doesn't know why, because everytime he's gonna watch it, he doesn't, and he really wants to see it, and then I was like, "I've seen bits of the 3rd movie" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, but it's not really that good because I really don't like the new Dumbledore" and he's like, "OH YEAH, because he died!" and I was like, "Yeah" and he was like, "You know what?" and I was like, "What?" and he's like, "I have to go now, but could I like, call you tomorrow or something to talk to you again, because I really want to talk to you again, but I like, really have to go right now" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Okay, bye" and I was like, "Bye".

And then to Sarah I was like EEEEKK!!!! Because I still am OH MY GOD he wants to TALK TO ME again!!!

I have so much to tell you: Last night, I phoned Calum, but he wasn't there again, and his dad said that Calum would've phoned me except his dad lost my number, and he kept trying to find it, and he said that the night before when he had friends over he was like going through all his papers going 'Is this it?' and he also that Calum was like totally on his case about it, and so I gave it to him again, and his dad promised not to lose it this time, and he said that Calum would phone me today.

Okay, so today we went to go see "The lion, the witch, and the wardrobe" at the McPherson Playhouse, and it was really cool, because it was like a play/musical thing, and they were all such great singers. And on the way there, I was on the same bus as CALUM WORTHY!!! It was so cool. And then when we came back, Mr.Cafley sent me, Michael Minkley, Shannon, and Sandy to deliver messages to teachers, and I got sent to wait outside Ms.Sneddon's room. Sandy to Mrs.Hamptons. Michael to Mrs.Campbell, and Shannon to Mr.Chamber's. The classrooms are all right by each other. So I had delivered mine, and was waiting for Mrs.Hampton to come and take Sandy's so we could go back to class, and then Calum comes and goes to his locker, right, and I had nothing to do, so I went over to him, and it was like this:
I'm like, "Calum"
He turns around.
I'm like, "Hi, did your dad tell you that someone phoned for you, last night?"
And he's like, "Yeah"
And I'm like, "That was me"
He's like, "Oh, Rebecca?"
And I was like, "Yeah"
And he's like, "Oh, hi
And I was like, "Hi"
and he's like, "How ya doing?"
And I was like, "Good....how are you?"
And he's like, "Good, how are you?"
And I'm like, "I'm good"
And then I'm like, "I have to go back to my classroom now" except that I was like totally stuttering.
And then he's like, "So did my dad write down your phone number?"
And I was like, "Yeah"
And he's like, "Okay cool, I'll phone you."

And then I went and totally freaked out to Sandy, and I turned around and he was still there!! He hasn't phoned yet, but I don't think he's going to. He's a movie star, for freak's sake.

And I talked to Jordan yesterday and the day before and I said to him, "So, how come it seems like you like me, but then you don't?" and he's like, "If I didn't like you, I think I would tell you." Which means that he does, which is kinda weird because I thought he didn't. And then he looked over at me today, so I looked back, and he's like, "What?" when HE totally started staring first, I just decided to stare back. He stared at me the WHOLE day, probably because I was wearing this really nice skirt and boots for the field trip, which is probably why Calum actually talked to me today, and when he sees what I look like on Monday he'll be like "Right..."

Okay, so I'm at Sarah's house right now, and she wants to write something but she's too scared because it's like totally all over the internet so anyone can read it...ahahhaa.....Okay, I am Sarah one of the freaks I hate Callan Chalmers. My hero is me. Okay she's done...so I phoned Calum last night, he's that guy who's in lots of movies that's in grade 7 that goes to my school, but his dad answered, and Calum was at some pagent Christmas play thing, so his dad took down my number, and said he'd get Calum to phone me, but then I went out so I'm not sure if he did. I might phone him tomorrow or tonight or something if I can, but it'll be so weird because he has no idea who I am, and I might say something dumb like "Can I have your autograph?", and he'll think I'm a freak, which I am, but whatever. Only 19 days till World Idol!!!

Ugh, I haven't written in so long it's hard to start. Well last week, Jordan was making fun of Kristina Busby, but I said she was okay except for when she acts like a chicken and he's like, "Yeah, and a horse, and a dog, and whore...se". That is SO rude!! He tried to make it sound like he said horse again but I totally KNEW he was lying. And today, we were making up leads for new stories, and then we wrote something and passed it back and by the time the paper got back to it's owner it had a whole story on it, and somehow mine became this: The driver looked away for just a second. It was one second too long. The next second I was lying in a crumpled heap of metal. I had crashed head-on into the truck in front of me.(Me) Gas started pouring out of the truck and my cigarette light made a spark(Callum). Light everywhere, is this heaven?(Megan or David). No this must be an insane asylum(Nick). At least I know what happened.(Charlie). Maybe someone can help me or give me a ride to the hospital(Me). The car exploded(Callum). I died. Oh well, who cares. No one likes me anyway(Me). Go Australian Idol!(Callum) Oh well, at least I got to see Ryan win Canadian Idol(Me). Booooooo!(Callum). As you can see, I wrote down who said what.

And then for my own lead I wrote, "I'm sorry, but that's how it is. Guy Sebastian won Australian Idol and you can't change that." and underneath Callum wrote, "You are going INSANE", and so I wrote, "No you are", so he put half squares around it ([ ]), and wrote Copy Paste at the top of it!!! And last week Andrew was away and this was Jordan's theory for why: "He was at air cadets and then he went to go take a rest in his office, but then his chair fell back and he smacked his head, and he went a little cuckoo, and he was so mental they had to shoot him with a sniper." and then Alistair's like, "Long story short, he's not with us anymore".

And in Mr.Pama's class we had some woman named Jane come in and talk to us about STI's(Sexually Transmitted Infections) and I asked what oral sex was, and she told me, and it was SO disgusting seriously!! And then Callan was going nuts afterwards and he kicked my pen up and it landed right in the recycling bin, and he was laughing so hysterically about what a great shot it was, and then Jordan's like, "Whoa, someone's getting horny!", and I totally freaked out because I've NEVER heard him talk like that before!! And then Nick got in trouble because he was writing really gross stories about Jordan, and he wrote that Jordan asked his mom if they had any VIAGRA, and she said yes, which is SO gross I was totally flipping out after school and Callum's like, "You know, people actually USE that stuff", and I was like, "Yes I know you don't have to tell me" and he's like, "Yes I do.". Seriously, family life makes everyone act so weird.

I'm going to Sarah's house tomorrow for a sleep-over, I'll tell you about it on Sunday when I get back, it should be fun. Shannon came over today, and we were playing Neopets it was so funny because I kept killing myself in the pirate caves game and everytime I was so close to finishing the level I would fall on a spike or something and I would start swearing so loud and Shannon was laughing so much and even more when I was playing the golfing game and I kept missing the damn hole!! But then we were so surprised because I kept getting good shots and getting the ball in on one shot.

Oh, crap, I just realized I forgot my science binder, which I need to do my math homework and my science element project draft(I'm doing magnesium), which is do Monday. I brought home my English binder instead. I guess it was all that STI talk that made me mess up my stuff. Damn reproductive system!!!

Okay, so yesterday night I was sleeping over at Sarah's dad's house, and it's like a huge mansion thing it's so awesome, but anyway, I talked to Jordan. I asked him like why does he have to be so mad at me all the time, and he's like, "Well, I'm not really mad, it's just that it's really annoying when you say stuff that makes us all argue." and I was like, "Well, I don't mean to. I just don't like it when you're mad at me" and he's like, "Okay then, on Monday, let's just like, try to get along". And then I said some like 10 minute thing about how if I've been thinking about if I should make it be over, like us, and about how if it was over I wouldn't be able to talk to him again even if he wanted me to, but like now because it's not over yet I know I can phone him like any time I want even if he doesn't want me to, so like could he decide, because it wasn't that hard, and it's like how much time does he need, because if he did care then why couldn't he say it, because it's like he's said it before so why couldn't he say it now, and he might not be saying it because he didn't care, and if he didn't care then why couldn't he just say because then it would be over and we both wouldn't have to worry about it, and it's like it's not like very good like me not knowing whether he does or not.

And he said about Andrew when I said he was friends with Andrew, he's like, "Well yeah, sort of". And I was like, "Um I thought you guys were best friends," and he's like, "Well I'm actually better friends with Jonathan and Ben, but Andrew thinks we're like BEST friends." and I was like um oh my god but then I was like, "So if I asked you, like to call me sometime, would you do it?" and he was just totally like, "Yeah." and I just totally like whoa, because I like totally didn't think he would, so I said, "Because I like totally've been wanting to ask you to, but like I totally can't do it at school because then people would like KNOW, which I know you like totally don't want them to, which is like what it was like last week when Derek was asking me if I lived in a bumhouse, and then I said to ask you, but that was a really dumb thing to say because Derek doesn't know, and seeing as I said that now he might kinda know, which is like, bad, and, do you think I live in a bumhouse?" and he's like, "What?" and I was like, "Do you think I live in a bumhouse", because he's like totally seen my house, so he was like, "What, is that like a place for street bums and where they live?" and I'm like, "Yeah", and he's like, "Well, no, not really," and I was like ugh! not really? That is so messed up!

But then Sarah and Stephanie were trying to disconnect the phone, so I said to Jordan, "Okay, I'm gonna ask you to phone me tomorrow...are you going to?" and he's like, "Well, what time?" and I was like, "Well, I'm gonna be home all day, so whatever time is good for you," and he's like, "Well, I do have all those drafts to do, and so do you, and I might be going out, but I will try to call you tomorrow," and I was like, "Okay, so does that mean you DO care?" and then he's like, "Well, I don't totally NOT care," but then I said to him, "Okay, Stephanie and Sarah keep saying they're gonna unplug the phone, but I don't think they're gonna do it," and he's like, "I think they will" and then Stephanie did something that made the phone go all blowy staticy and freaked up, so I lost connection for like 2 minutes, but then it stopped, and I was like, "Um, did they..." and he was like, "Yeah, they did", in this totally 'I told you so' kind of voice which got me so mad. I started freaking and running around the house looking for Stephanie and Sarah because they disconnected us, and he said about how he would call me tomorrow if he could, and that he'd better go before they do it again, so he did.

And then so I went running around the house, and I was like, "I just spent half an hour on the phone with the most GORGEOUS man alive, and you two FREAKS just totally ruined it when we were just about to solve our problems!!!" But then I found them and they said sorry because Sarah tried to stop Stephanie from diong it, but she wouldn't listen. But then I was still happy because like he was gonna try and call me and he admitted that he still cared, which I know is hard for him to do, so I gotta give him props for that. Right? If ya'll got any advice or stuff about the whole Bek and Jordan thing, email me at redrose1345@hotmail.com, okay? Thanks ya'll!

Bek

There's not much to write about my group today, Stephanie wasn't there, so all we really did was work but Derek was being really hyper. We switched stations again, so now we're studying the Apatheid, or something like that. It's about the time when the blacks were segregated from the whites, or something like that. We had to make up questions, so Jordan suggested, "Why did the whites hate the blacks?" so I was like, "Um, maybe because they TRASHED their country???" and he's like, "GOOD!!" I was like:whoa. And then after at lunch when we were re-doing our heroes thing in the library, I was talking to Jordan about why he never picks up the phone, and before Derek came into the library I said to Jordan, "You know how you said that if one person messes up, then the whole group will get marks taken off?" and he's like, "Yeah." I was like, "Well, you know I can do that, right?" and he's like, "Yeah, you already HAVE!", so I was like, "Yeah but I could do it more." so he's like, "Okay..." and I said, "Well, suppose I said, if you don't pick up the phone next time I won't work?" and he's like, "Oh so now you're threatening me?" and I was like, "No, it's not a threat, it's more of a warning." I scared him so good. I know it's mean, but I'll think of another way to get him to call me later. This is just a beginning plan.