So here's what happening on American Idol: The best are John Stevens VI, Amy Adams, Lisa Leuchner, Matthew Rogers, and Jon Peter Lewis, who all made it to the top 32. The people who they kicked off in the top 117 who are SO gonna be brought back as wildcard are Nicole Tieri(ScooterGirl from New York), Michael Keown(the guy from New York who sang for the pope), Sarah Silva, and Bao Viet, and Sonny Kapu maybe too.

I'm listening to Delta Goodrem, "Running Away" right now and just waiting for Calum to phone. Oh darn, I wrote about him. Oh well. I hate Jordan. No, I don't. Whatever, it doesn't matter anyway because it's over. Well, I made it over. I phone him and his brother picked up the phone and when he went to give it to Jordan, Jordan asked who it was and when he found out he hung up, so I called back and left a message saying that we were done because there was no point in carrying on like this when it's obvious he doesn't care, I mean well he does but if he can't even say it then I can't really live like that, and I told him it was obvious what we had couldn't come back to us and it was never going to be normal again, so we were finished, forever. Unless of course he didn't want to be, which I'm sure he did. That's exactly what I said, really. I cried into my pillow for about 10 minutes, and then went on the computer, played Cosima De Vito's "I give my love to you" and cried some more. Whatever. It's not like I'll actually get OVER him, I'll just keep scheming new plans to try and get him back until one actually WORKS. I mean I've done it twice before so I'm sure I can do it again. Until then, I have John Stevens VI. Well, that was a nice two year relationship. And I only got one lousy kiss out of it. Nah, it was wonderful.

Now I'm watching Clay Aiken's video of "I could not ask for more". I don't really know WHY, probably because I'm just trying to make it make me feel better, oh and because he's hot. Mmm, Clay.