EEEK!!! Okay sorry, but I just talked to Calum, and first I said, "Okay, so the World Idol Results show, Elton John is going to be there, like performing" and he's like, "Oh really? That's really cool, he's awesome, I love Elton John" and I was like, "Yeah, me too" and then he said, "Hey, I was thinking, do want to start MSNing?" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like "Because I was thinking it would be like easier, like just in case I was in Vancouver, then we wouldn't have to worry about long distance, you know?" and I was like, "Yeah, that's a good idea" and he's like "And also, I'm not always near a phone, but I'm almost always near a computer, so like, we could talk on there, like just in case, you know?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Actually, I'm right by a computer right now" and I was like, "Oh yeah?".

And then he's like, "So what's your email?" and I told him and he's like "It says that it can't be added" and then he repeated the address to see if he got it right and he had but for some reason it wouldn't work, so he's like "Why don't you add me?" and I was like, "Yeah okay I just gotta sign in" and it was taking forever so I was like, "Yeah, I'm trying to sign in right now it's just taking forever, I have so many people on my list, I have like 132 people" and he's like, "You have 132 people on your MSN?! That's crazy!" And I was like, "Yeah I know" and he's like, "I don't have that many people, because I only just got it back, because my computer was like really crazy, and so I like just got it back, but I'm trying to add more people" and I was like, "Yeah" and then so I added him and he accepted me.

And then he was like, "So we can still phone each other, but it's like if someone needs to use the phone then we can like talk on here, and if someone needs the computer then I can phone you, or you can phone me, or whatever you know?" and I was like, "Yeah", and then we got off the phone and he came on MSN and I messaged him and this is how the convo went:

(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: hi
Burt says: Hello
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: you have no idea what "Ensani Ma Binsak" means, do you?
Burt says: no!
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: it's Arabic for "Forget me but I won't forget you"...it's the name of Diana Karazon's winning song in Lebanon Idol
Burt says: g2g
Burt says: bye
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: bye

And then he went offline and then I started talking to Adam, that guy from New Zealand who wants to be friends with Calum and me. Well me and him ARE friends but we're not sure about Calum yet. I mean me and Calum are friends, DUH, but what I mean is I don't know if Adam and Calum are friends, you know? But it is just so cool that now Calum is on my MSN which means that I don't have to phone him like all the time, not that I do anyways, but he said that he's almost always near a computer so we can talk more often on MSN then we do on the phone, although he said that he'll still phone me sometimes and I can still phone him and all that stuff, so. Only 2 days till World Idol results show and Guy BETTER win, seriously because if he doesn't I will seriously cry like I did with Carmen Rasmusen and Clay Aiken and Cosima de Vito...if Guy doesn't win I want it to be Jamai or Diana, but Diana probably won't win because her fan base isn't big enough, and I'm not sure about Jamai, but I don't need to worry about that because like I said GUY is going to win!!

Okay, so I just talked to Calum about an hour ago(I phoned him, he wasn't home, he called me back), and it was like this: I picked up the phone right, and was like, "Hello?" and he was like, "Hi" and I just wish you guys could hear the way he says 'Hi', it's so cool, and so then I was like, "Hi" and he's like, "Hi" and I was like, "Hi" and he's like, "How are you?" and I was like "Good" and he's like, "Oh yeah? How was your Christmas?" and I was like, "It was good" and then I was like, "So um, do you know like, any guys named Adam that are like, 17 years old?" and he's like, "No" and then so I was like, "Yeah, that's what I thought, because like, okay, this guy sent me this email today, right, and he said that he had been to my website, where like, I've written like, a tiny bit about you sometimes, right, and he wanted me to give him like, your phone number, and I like, wouldn't" and he's like, "Thank you very much, that's awesome" and I was like, "I don't know, it just like, kinda scared me" and he's like "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, it's so weird how you like, have these people" and he's like, "Yeah well, there are some people like that".

And then I asked him, "What do you do if someone calls you, like a lot, and sometimes you just don't want to talk to them?" and he's like, "I don't really know" and then so I was like, "Because there's like this girl, and she's kinda my friend, and she phones me every single day, and sometimes I want to talk to her, but it's really annoying" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, and sometimes, she phones like three times a day" and he thought that was so funny, and then I was like, "But I don't really want to tell her I don't want to talk to her, because that's kinda mean, and I like already lie to her, like if I don't want to talk to her anymore, I say I have to go when I don't" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "So what do you think I should do?" and he's like, "I don't know...that's a tough one...if it starts weird, then just like...I don't know, that's hard!" and then I was like, "And I know that's what it must be like with you, because I do phone you like, a lot" and he's like, "No, it's okay" and I was like, "Because that's why Alistair like, totally hated me, because I phoned him like every day" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "And I didn't know why he hated me until like, he left,and then there was nothing I could do" and he's like, "Oh" and then I was like, "So if I'm ever phoning you too much, you can just tell me to stop and I will" and he's like, "Okay, but you're seriously not phoning me too much at all" and I was like, "Okay, that's good".

And then I was like, "I haven't told you about Jordan yet, have I?" and he's like, "Who's Jordan?" so then I told him everything, and at the end of it all he's like, "So do you still like him?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Then tell him that" and I was like, "Yeah, I guess I should. I phoned Jordan last night, by the way, just to wish him Merry Christmas and to tell him to check the message that I left for him on his machine the other night.


And then I was like, "For Christmas, I got like, Clay's Cd" and he's like, "What?" and I was like, "Clay?" and he's like, "Oh" and I was like, "Like, Aiken? And I got Ryan Malcolm's, and I also got Ruben's" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "And I was really surprised that like, I got that, because like, no one knew that I wanted it, and when I did get it people were like, surprised because they like, thought I hated Ruben, which I did, like I totally used to, like when it was like him against Clay, I like totally hated him, but like, the stuff he sings now, is totally nothing like the stuff he did on the show", and he's like, "Yeah".

And then I was like, "That guy who emailed me, at first I thought it was Duncan," and he's like, "Well, he knows my phone number, so" and I was like, "Yeah I know, that's not what I meant, like I thought maybe it was him pretending to be someone else, like seeing if I would do it?" he's like, "Oh" and I was like, "Well, do you think he would do that?" and he was like, "Well I don't think it was him, he wouldn't do that, it's doubtful".

And then I was like, "Did you watch World Idol?" and he's like, "No, was it good?" and I was like, "Yeah it was, why didn't you watch it?" and he's like, "Oh, because I had lots of family over, so" and I was like, "My brother and sister were voting when they're like, not even interested in that kind of stuff" and he's like, "Voting?" and I was like, "Yeah, but they were like mostly making fun of everyone, and when they were watching it, during my favorite who wasn't singing in English, and during her whole performance, they were going hysterical at the language she was singing in" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "And they also hated my other favorite from Australia, and my other one from Netherlands they thought was gay, because he kinda looks like that" and he's like, "Yeah well, looks can be mistaken" and I was like, "Yeah I know, and they think that Clay's gay as well" and he's like, "Oh really?".

And I was like, "Yeah, because my dad bought me an Elton John CD for Christmas, right?" and he's like, "I love Elton John, he's so cool" and I was like, "Yeah I know, me too" and he's like, "He's so...he's...he's just awesome" and I was like, "I know, but my brother and sister think he's gay too" and he's like, "Well he is" and I was like, "Yeah I know, but that's why they hate him" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, like my brother said that I can't listen to it while anybody else is in the house" and he's all surprised and he's like, "Oh REALLY?" and I was like, "Yeah well, I'm not going to listen, but like when I tried to show it to them they're like 'No, get it away from us, that's horrible', and stuff like that it was so weird", and he's like, "Oh yeah".

And then I started saying like really freakish things because I couldn't think of anything to say, and then I was like, "Because you're not saying anything" and he thought that was funny and he's like, "Well my Christmas was good, I got a game cube, so it was cool...it was good, good Christmas", and I was like, "Yeah, so was mine".

And then I heard his mom say, "Dinner's ready!", and then he's like, "Okay, well I gotta get going, so I'll talk to you later!" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Bye" and I'm like, "Bye".

When I first phoned him and he wasn't home, I talked to his mom and it went like this: She said that he wasn't home but he would be in like two minutes he was just on his way, and she asked if she should get him to call me and I said yes, and she was like, "So does he have your phone number?" and I was like, "Yeah he does" and she's like, "You know what? I'm just going to take it down again, things have been really crazy in this house, you know" and I was like, "Oh yeah" so I gave it to her again, and after I was laughing because both her and Calum and his dad use the word crazy for everything and I was like, "These people and their crazyness!" and I had talked to her at like 7, and it was like 7:30 and he still hadn't phoned yet so I totally thought he wasn't going to, but he did at like 7:40, so I was really happy, because no one was home and I was blaring Clay Aiken's CD so it was all good.

After Clay I watched some Powerpuff Girl episodes on our new DVD player with my new PPG DVD, so that was fun, and then I listened to Ryan and his CD rocked too just like Clay's. I wonder if I should tell him that I like the Powerpuff Girls? Probably not, he'd be like "Freak". Oh darn it, I forgot to ask him if he considers us friends, but it's kinda obvious he probably does because why else would he talk to me and phone me?

Anyway, I have to put on the Narrator, and plus my mom wants to go on to transfer pictures from our digital camera onto the computer, because she just took some pictures of my cat and my sister and me being freaks, so.

Okay, so we just finished opening presents a while ago, and I got some really cool stuff. I got 3 DVD's, because Father bought us a new DVD player, and my DVD's were: Powerpuff Girls(YES, I do like them), Spy Kids 2:The Island of Lost Dreams, and The Witches. I got some chocolates and a Narnia book from my mom(C.S.Lewis), and a T-Shirt from my sister, a tape from my brother so I can record World Idol tonight, and a scarf from my mom, and from my dad I got 3 Cd's: Elton John(Goodbye Yellow Brick Road), Ryan Malcom(Home), and Clay Aiken(Measure of a Man). It really surprised me that I got Ryan's CD from my dad, because that's what I had asked my sister Melissa for, so I thought I was going to get it from her, but then just listen what happens next.

So then Melissa comes over, and gives me her presents, and I could see one of them was a CD, and so of course I thought it was Ryan's but I open it, and it's RUBEN'S!! I totally freaked out because I had no idea how she knew that I wanted that, and plus I never thought I'd get it like I said yesterday, so then I asked her how she knew, and she said that a little elf told her, so of course I know that means my mom. I don't know how my dad knew that I liked Elton John, probably because I listen to the Ocean all the time, which plays stuff like that. Patrick and Teresa totally freaked out at the CD because they both think he's gay, which he is, but that's okay, and Patrick told me that I was never allowed to listen to it around anyone in the house, but I was like whatever, so. I'm listening to "Soulful" right now it's so cool, my bro Tim is going to love it he loves rap and this is what that is, totally.

And then I opened my other stuff from Melissa, which was a V-neck t-shirt which is blue, which is cool, and also she got me a Canadian Idol T-Shirt, which is really cool because I'm totally gonna wear it to school I don't care what people say, and then I'm wearing right now.

I got up first at like 8, and then I went on the computer, and then at like 10 I went into my mom's room and watch Much's Most Wanted: Top 20 hottest guys of the year. Jake Gellyenhall was #10, he's from the movie October Sky which me and my mom really like, and Orlando Bloom was number 9, and he's cool, and Ashton Kutcher was #3, and I guess he's allright but I don't really like him that much, and Justin Timberlake was #1, which really sucked because he is SO not hot. Clay should've been number 1 but he wasn't even on the list! He is so going to be next year. Last night they had the top 20 girls, like Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen were #18, and I'm not sure if Hilary Duff was on the list because I didn't finish watching it, but she probably wasn't because she hasn't really been around for that long, even though she's been like everywhere over the past year, so she might've been, I don't know.

And now Ruben's singing, "Flying Without Wings", which of course was his winning song, and of course it's awesome. If you guys think I don't like Clay anymore, you're such a lie. I totally do, and I'm totally going to listen to his CD later, I just like Ruben all of a sudden now, because his new style is so awesome, and I know that Calum doesn't like him, but I'm sure if he heard this new CD he would, so I have to like force him to listen to it, because you all know I can do that, right? I have to phone him tomorrow to tell him all what of I got. Calum I mean, not Ruben. I know I'm not making any sense right now, but that's because it's all so of Christmas, so I like totally wouldn't be, you know? I have to ask Calum if he considers us friends, because if he does that would so cool, because then we could be like Lizzie and Gordo, except there would be no Miranda, but you know we don't need one because it like totally doesn't matter.

And now Melissa is like totally dumping chocolates on me from my bag, but that's okay. Ruben is almost over. Okay, in the book I'm reading, "Charlie Wilcox's Great War", which is the second Charlie Wilcox book, Charlie tells Claire about the expression, "Carpe Diem", and later she tries to say it but she says "Crap Demon", and when I read that I was going so hysterical because it was just so funny. Darn it, now I can't move the mouse because it's covered with chocolates. I have to go to the bathroom, and when I get back the chair will be gone, so I should go. World Idol at 8 on CTV(Channel 9)!!

Okay, so I just came back from my dad's friend Celeste's house, and I played with her kids and stuff, so that was fun. And now I'm listening to Ruben Studdard, "Sorry 2004", from his new album "Soulful", which I really want, but I really doubt I'm gonna get it for Christmas, because my mom really hates Ruben, so. I already know some of the things I might be getting: Clay's CD, Ryan's CD, and People Magazine with Clay on the cover. I know for sure I'm getting the magazine because I saw my mom buy it for me. I phoned Jordan today but he wasn't home so I left a message saying Merry Christmas and I was sorry for messing everything up. I don't really know why I said that when I didn't even do anything, but there's no way HE's gonna apologize, because he just doesn't do that.

Now I'm listening to Diana Karazon, "Ensani Ma Binsak". She's the winner of Lebanon Idol, and I really want her to come in second in World Idol, but she probably won't because she doesn't sing in English(She sings in Arabic), and most people want to be able to understand what the contestants are saying, and then there's all those racist people out there, but I like foreign music so it's all good.

I wonder what Calum's doing right now? Probably just hanging with his parents and talking about what Christmas is gonna be like tomorrow. I wonder what it IS going to be like for him? He's so lucky he doesn't have any brothers or sisters, it must be so cool, it being just like him and his mom and his dad, because I've talked with his dad a few times, and he's awesome.

I just got $50 from my grandparents for Christmas money, so after Christmas I might buy myself another CD(with my report card money I bought Hilary Duff, "Metamorphasis"), and get my hair done like Hilary Duff, which is layered bangs and layered hair. It should be fun. I have to put the Narrator on now to see what this sounds like. I'm not sure if I'll be on to write tomorrow, it being Christmas and World Idol and all, but I'll come back if I can!! Merry Christmas and Happy World Idol ya'll!

Okay, so I just phoned Calum(I didn't MEAN to, it was an accident!), because I was talking to one of my CI message board friends on MSN, and I sent her a file of me singing, and she totally freaked out and said how awesome it was and she totally wanted more, and I was just like so totally excited and happy that I just ran over and picked up the phone and started dialing, and then I realized I had phoned Calum, and then his dad answered and I was like, "Is Calum home?" and he's like, "Ah yes, he's right here!" and then like two seconds later Calum came on and he's like, "Ahoyhoy!" and I could totally tell they were having fun, and I was like, "Hi, um, I know you probably don't want to talk to me right now, but um, I just wanted to tell you, I was talking to this person on MSN, right, and I like sent her, like a file thing, of my singing, and she said it was really really good" and he's like, "Oh really? That's awesome!" and I was like, "Yeah, and I was just like so happy, that I just like, picked up the phone, and just like started dialing like, numbers, and like, I just like, called you, even though I know I wasn't supposed to" and he's like, "No, it's okay, no worries" and I was like, "Okay, that's good" and he's like, "But I have to go, to eat my dinner" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "So I'll talk to you later" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Okay bye" and I was like, "Bye". I am SO not phoning him tomorrow, even though I planned to, I can't do it now because I JUST DID!!

I'm still talking to that person I sent it to, and I'm sending her more stuff and she thinks they're all great and she keeps telling me how good I am which is making me really happy because people don't EVER say that to me!!

I don't really know WHY I phoned Calum just to tell him that, probably because, like I said, I don't hear that a lot so it's good to know I might have a chance at living my dream, you know, and plus there's the fact that I was so happy I just couldn't control myself and I just picked up the phone like a freak and plus I wanted him to say it was awesome which he DID which is good because HE is so incredibly AWESOME!! The American Idol Christmas Special is replaying in half an hour if anyone wants to watch it it's on CTV at 9pm, and World Idol is in TWO DAYS!! MERRY CHRISTMAS YA'LL!!!

Okay, so I think I might phone Calum on Christmas Eve, I don't really know why, just to say Happy Christmas and to talk and stuff, and I need to tell him about Jordan and ask him what I should do about this freak problem that we're having, because Jordan says he still likes me but I'm not sure, so I just want things to be like they were before, like when we said "I love you" to each other like all the time, which he hasn't said to me since September the 1st, the day before we went back to school and everything got messed up, which was like 3 months ago, and it's getting really annoying that nothing's happening, so I thought maybe Calum could fix it. Or something...like that. And then I need to tell Calum about what presents I got for people and we can talk about World Idol and who we're going to vote for and stuff like that and what we're doing on Christmas and stuff like that...okay, I don't really have much more to write so I think I'll go now, my sister Teresa is here from Vancouver and we're watching Home Alone(I'm not sure if it's the first movie or the second movie, I'll never watch the 3rd one because it doesn't have Macaulney Culkin or whatever his name is in it, and plus it doesn't have the same bad guys, so I'll totally hate it).

Okay, I just got back from a two day trip, I have to tell you what happened:

Friday: I sang karaoke at the school dance, they didn't have Hilary so I did Britney Spears, "From the bottom of my broken heart", and it was fun, some people thought I was really good and others told me I should learn to sing in English, but whatever, they can be derks about it, I really don't care. Calum said that I was good, but he didn't hear all of it because he went downstairs to the dance(the karaoke was in the lunchroom). And after I sang I talked to him, and he said about how he has to know people for a really long time before he can hang out with them outside of school, and then I phoned him later that night at Sarah's mansion house, and it turns out he thought I meant that I wanted to hang out outside of school, and then I told him that wasn't what I meant, and then finally he understood I meant AT school. And then I was like, "But it seems like you're too good for me" and he's like, "No, that's not it" and then I was like, "You're Calum, man!" and then he thought that was funny, and then Sarah kept chucking stuffed animals at me so I started chucking them back and we were going hysterical it was so hard to talk properly, and then I was like, "So is it that you DON'T want to hang out with me?" and he's like, "No" and I was like, "So you do?" and he's like, "Yeah sure, like whatever" and then I said to him later, "Like, you know how you said that you didn't care if you hung out with me or not?" and he thought that I was getting mad at him so he's like, "No, it's not that" and I was like, "No, I mean like, you said it wasn't a problem right?" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "But like, how would we do that?" and he's like, "What do you mean?" and I was like, "Well, I'm not used to like, arranging these kind of things" and he's like, "What do you mean?" and I was like, "Well, it's like, we have messed up lunchtimes, so how would we do this?" and he's like, "Well there's still like, recess" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "I don't know, things'll just like, fall into place, you know?" and I was like, "Yeah" and then he had to go, so he was like, "Yeah, I gotta go now, so, I'll talk to you in the New Year right?" and I was like, "Yeah okay" and he was like, "So, we can talk then?" and I was like, "Yeah, sure", and then he was like, "Okay bye" and I was like, "Bye". So now I can't talk to him till January 1st, which is the results show of World Idol but that's okay because then I have lots to tell him.

Saturday: I got up early, took the 11am ferry to Abbotsford, drove for 2 hours to the Best Western Hotel, then we went swimming in the hotel pool, and then we went to the hotel restaurant, and then we went to the best concert of all time: DAKONA!!! They're this band that kinda sounds like Our Lady Peace if you know who they are, and we got to go backstage and meet them, and I spent most of my time talking to the drummer who's really hot and he's my favourite, and we got photos and all their autographs, and the main guy, Ryan, kept looking and pointing at me during the concert it was really cool. We went back to the hotel and went to sleep after watching Dilbert.

Sunday: We got up at like 9, left the hotel at 11 because we had to, and went to a mall in Langley, and bought some stuff for Sarah's little brother Patrick, then we drove to the ferry and caught the 1pm, and me and Sarah got some pictures taken in the booth of us with a seal, it was really cool imaging thingyness...whatever that means, I don't know. So we got back to my house at like 3:15, and I downloaded some Dakona songs, and now I'm writing this and talking on MSN to one of my Tyler Hamilton fan friends from the Canadian Idol board who emails me a lot, and I really want to put on the narrator so it can read this out, so I have to go now. Ahoy!

Okay, so I talked to Calum after school today, because he wasn't there for the morning because of acting, and I asked him if he opened his locker, and he was like, "No" and I was like, "Oh, because there's something in there" and he's like, "Oh really, there is?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he was like, "Is it open?" and I was like, "No, but there's something in there" and he's like, "Okay" and then so he leaves, and then I come home today, and he phones me, and he's like, "I got your note, and it's just like, I'm like, really busy like, until the new year, so maybe, we could like, talk in the new year?" by talk I think he means hang out or something because we're talking right NOW, and I was like "Okay" and then he's like, "It takes like, a really long time for me to get to know people, like sometimes it takes like, a year" and then I was like, "Yeah, it's like, the same with me".

And I was like, "I really wanted to talk to you today, but I like, couldn't find you" and then he's like, "Yeah, I wasn't there" and I was like, "Because like, this whole week has been like, really crappy" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "And then, like, after lunch, I just like, started crying because I just like, couldn't take it anymore" and then he's like, "What?" and then I was like, "I don't know, it's just like okay, on Monday I was upset because I didn't get to hang out with you, and then on Tuesday my dance class was messed up because the guy like wouldn't even like, look at me, and then on Wednesday my Neopets account got messed up, and then today my dance class got messed up again, and it was my last class, so I wanted it to be fun" and he's like, "Oh yeah, I hate those days" and then so I went to go see the counsellor, and then I came back, and I was okay" and he's like, "Oh yeah? That's awesome!".

And then I was like, "Yeah , but I think I was like, a little too okay, because when I got back I was like really hyper, and I kept calling everybody a bumcrack" and he was like, "What's that?" and I was like, "I kept calling everybody a bumcrack" and he's like, "Haha, really?" and then I was like, "And then I kept talking about bumcrack Idol, because I like Canadian Idol and American Idol and stuff" and he's like, "Oh yeah?" and then I was like, "Do you like those shows?" and he's like, "Oh yeah, they're great" and I was like, "So what about World Idol?" and he's like, "Oh yeah, that's gonna be really cool" and I was like, "So do you like Ryan Malcolm?" and he's like, "What?" and I was like, "Ryan Malcom, do you like him" and he's like "He's okay" and I was like, "Oh yeah" and he's like, "But I like Clay Aiken" and I was like, "Oh yeah, me too" and he was like, "I don't like Ruben...well he's okay, but I like Clay Aiken best out of all of them" and I was like, "Me too".

And then I asked him, "You know how that time when I said that we should hang out, and then you phoned me?" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and I was like, "Well, did you know what I meant when I said that?" and he's like, "No, I wasn't sure" and then I was like, "You weren't sure if I liked you, were you?" and he's like, "No" and then I was like, "Well, what would you do if you found out that I did?" and he's like, "I don't know, I'd probably be like thanks, that's really cool" and then I was like, "Okay, and what if you found out that I didn't?" and he was like, "Um...I don't really know" And then I was like, "Because I know the answer, I just don't know how to tell you" and he's like, "Oh yeah, I get that too sometimes" and then I was like, "Because it's like, when I talk to people I don't like, I can just talk normally, but with you, it's like, I can't even say a sentence properly" and he's like, "Oh yeah".

And I was like, "So um...I think I might" and he's like, "Oh, okay cool" and then he said about how he didn't really like anyone right now, so it wasn't just me, but he said it wasn't that he didn't like me he just had to get to know me first, and so I said to him "So, you don't wonder why I talk to you, do you?" and he's like, "No, not really" and I was like, "Do you even care?" and he's like, "Do I care about...what? If you talk to me?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Yeah, I do", which is good, because at least he wants to talk to me.

And then I said to him, "We're probably not going to see each other, like at all next year" and he's like, "Oh, you mean when you move to Claremont?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Yeah well, you never know" and then I'm like, "And we're probably never going to be able to hang out, like ever" and he's like, "Well, why not?" and I was like, "Because you don't have time for stuff like that!" and he's like, "Yeah, I do, we just have to keep trying to set something up" and so I think that's a good sign that he still wants to talk to me.

Oh my god, I just realized something...I'm going to the dance tomorrow, so is he! I'm doing karaoke...I can do Hilary Duff because I just bought her CD so I know the words to "So Yesterday"! I can use that as a way to impress him, because you know, he sings too. Jeeze Murphy, what am I going to wear! EEK I have to go now and decide!!

Oh my god, I am SO mad at Stephanie!! She knows my Neopets password, and she said she would only use it for good purposes, but guess what she did? FIRST, she renames all my petpets, and then, she decides she's going to create a new account for me with rare pets, but that's not the bad point, the thing is, I had 888,000np which she had PROMISED not to touch, and she moves 200,000 into this new account!! God, she is SO STUPID!!! And then so I try to go back into my other account to move them back, and it says "Sorry, you have tried too many times to guess this password for today!" which means that she had been trying to get back in, probably to move MORE neopoints, but she kept messing up the password, which now means that I can't get into it before TOMORROW, by which time she could've done ANYTHING!!! Holy Ryan Malcom!! And before she had done this, she had already been buying me stuff which I didn't want her to do, and collecting the stuff from the advent calendar before I got home, which is the thing I look forward to the most about Neopets, and she completely ruins it for me by doing it first!! I have no idea what I'm supposed to do, aside from beat the hell out of her tomorrow! Ugh, I'll be back tomorrow to tell you what happened...oh PS I saw Lord of the Rings 3, and I left a note in Calum's locker.

Okay, so I just talked to Calum again(Ugh, I am such a loser), and he wasn't really doing much, but we didn't really get to talk much, only for like 10 minutes, and my cat was killing me, or at least she was trying to, so then I told him that, and he's like, "Oh really, crazy!" and then she jumped on my back like totally dug her claws into me, and I told him that, and he's like, "Oh really? That must hurt." and I told him about when we had like 15 cats sometimes it got hard because they like all came after you sometimes, and he's like, "Yeah, that must've been crazy!" and then I said that I liked cats, but it was actually better, when I had a dog, and he's like, "Oh really? Are they easy to keep?" and I was like, "Yeah, mine got sick last year, she had diabetes, so we had to get her put down" and he's like, "Oh really? That's sad" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "That's too bad that that happened" and I was like, "Yeah" and then I was saying about how when we had like 15 cats and like 10 rabbits it was so hard sometimes because we had to like, spend a lot of money on them, and he's like, "Oh yeah, that must've been, like, really expensive" and then I threw my cat off my back and said that I was going to leave my room and go somewhere else, and he's like, "Yeah, that's probably a good thing, to do".

And so I was walking upstairs and I was like, "So, what did you do today?" and he's like, "Well, I went to school, and came home, and that's all, really" and then I was like, "So, what do you think, of our school?" and he's like, "Oh, I think it's great" and I was like, "Yeah, it's okay, but like, some of the people, I kinda get the feeling that they're not like, acting like themselves, they're being who other people want them to be" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, it's like, mainly like, the popular girls" and he's like, "Oh yeah? I haven't really come across, those type of people yet" and then I was like, "And it's really annoying when there's like popular grade 7's like, being snobby to you, and you're like older than them, right?" and he's like, "Oh yeah, well, I'll probably see that next year".

And so I was like, "But there's a lot of good teachers, in grade 8" and he's like, "Oh really? Like, a lot of good ones?" and I was like, "Yeah, like Mr.Levere, who's one of the science teachers," and he's like, "Oh yeah" and I was like, "He's really nice, but when he gets mad, he like gets REALLY mad!" and he's like, "Oh yeah?" and then I was like, "Like for the past few days in Mr.Melnyks room, we've heard him yelling like SO loud, and he like NEVER yells" and then he was like, "Can you hold on a second" and then he came back on and he was like, "I have to go eat dinner now, but I will talk to you later" and I was like, "Okay" and then he was like, "Okay bye" and I was like, "Bye." That was such a waste of a conversation, seriously. I didn't even get to ask him if he watches any Idol shows, man.

Mrs.Robertson knows I like him, I don't know how, I asked her to guess who I liked, and I said he was in grade 7 and in Concert Band, and she's like, "Calum?" and I was like, "Oh my god how did you know?" and she's like, "You like red-heads!!" which is kinda true and plus she's my best friend so it wasn't exactly that hard for her to find out, but still, it's freaky that she knew on the first guess. I think I'll put the narrator on again now.

Okay, so I talked to Calum again yesterday, and this time I seriously didn't phone him, he phoned me, and I like totally freaked out, because I like never thought he would. And then so he was like, "You know how you said that we should like, hang out sometime?" and I was like, "Yeah" and then he was like, "Well that would be like, really cool, and I really want to do that, but I was thinking like, not yet, you know what I mean?" and then so I was like, "Not really" because I totally didn't get what he meant, so I was like, "What did you think I meant when I said that?" and he's like, "What did you mean?" and then I was like, "I actually don't know" and then he's like, "Are you okay?" and then I was like, "Yeah..." and then he was like, "Well, I wasn't really sure, like I thought maybe you liked me" and then I was like, "Okay..." so then he's like, "Okay, can I like, take whatever I just said back, because I feel really stupid now" so then I was like, "Okay" and then he kept saying about how he totally felt really stupid and like a jerk, but I don't really know why he felt that way, I mean all he did was misunderstand what I meant when I said, "Hang out" he thought I meant, "Go out", which is perfectly understandable.

So then he was like, "Could we like, hang out at school, because I really want to do that" and then I was like, "Yeah, that's what I meant" and then finally he understood, and then I went into my sisters room which is where I always went to talk to Alistair, and then I was like, "I'm back at home now, because I haven't been here for like, two days" and then he's like, "Oh yeah, did you have fun at your sleepover?" and then I was like, "Yeah" and then he's like, "That's good" and then I was like, "But it was really weird, because my friend got mad at me, and then she kept like, chucking toilet paper at me" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, she was like getting rolls of toilet paper, and like, chucking them at me" and he's like, "Whoa, that's crazy!" and then I was like, "And then we were in my room, like it's this part by her closet, right, and then we were chucking stuffed animals down the stairs, and it was really fun" and he's like, "Oh really? That's awesome!" and then I was like, "And she was pretending that they were people, like she would pick up these bears, right, and then she'd be like, 'Okay, this is you, and this is Calum' and then she would throw them down the stairs, it was really weird, seriously" and then he asked me like where do I usually hang out, and I was like, "Usually in the field, but I work in the library on Friday" and so he's like, "Okay, so I'll see you in the field tomorrow?" and I was like "Okay" and then he's like, "Okay cool" and then I was like, "Bye" and he's like, "Bye". He kept saying that I was an awesome and great person, and one time during the conversation he's like, "And I really want to hang out with you, cause you're awesome!" And that was really cool because no one's ever said that to me before, especially not a guy.

But then we actually didn't get to hang out today because our lunch times are different and by the time he came outside I had to go inside, so I'm probably gonna phone him tonight to see if we can reschedule to a time where we're both more available. He's really awesome, and I want to do everything I can to keep things cool.

Okay, so yesterday I talked to Calum again(I spent another night at Sarah's house), and this time he was watching Charlie Brown Christmas, which is so totally different from what he was watching before, which was American Pie 2, and then I asked him like isn't that movie kind of gross, and he's like no not really it's hillarious, and I was like, "But isn't there like, one part in the first movie where he like does something to the pie?" and he's like, "Yeah, that was kinda gross, but that was in the first movie" and then so I was like, "Yeah isn't there like, this part in the second movie, where these two girls are like, doing something?" and he's like, "Well, what were they doing?" and I was like, "What were they doing? Um...okay, you know what? Never mind, that is just TOO disgusting to talk about!" because there was like NO way I was gonna tell him what they were doing, if he didn't see, well that's good for him.

Oh, and when we first got on the phone it was so funny because he's like, "Hello?" and I'm like, "Hi" and he's like, "Oh hi" and I was like, "How are you?" and he's like, "Who is this?" and I was like, "Um, it's Rebecca" and he's like, "Oh hey how ya doing?" and I was like "Good, how are you?" and he's like, "I'm okay". And then I was talking about how me and my brother always sit around making fun of people, and he's like, "Oh you do? That's crazy!" and then I asked him if he had a sister and he said no, and I asked if it was just him, and he said yeah, and then I said that's what I thought. And then I asked him if he had any pets, and he said 2 cats, and then I told him all the pets that I had, and he's like, "Whoa, that's crazy!" and then I told him about how I used to have 15 cats and like 10 rabbits, and he's like, "Whoa, really? That's crazy!" and then I sat on a talking toy again like I had done the night before, and so I told him, and he's like, "Oh yeah, you did that last night didn't you?" and I was like, "Yeah I always do that!" and I told him about how I was still at Sarah's house because I didn't really want to talk to him at my house but I really didn't know why.

And then he's like, "I have to have my dinner now, because we like, just got back" and I was like, "From where?" and he's like, "Singing recital" and I knew I had to say it then or else I wasn't going to, so I was like, "You know how I asked you earlier if you ever had time to like, hang out with people?" and he's like, "Yeah" and I was like, "Well, would you ever be able to like, hang out with me sometime?"(The main person he hangs out with is Duncan Polson, and if I don't watch out I could have the whole Alistair Young thing going here) and he's like, "Sure" and I was like, "Okay that's good" and he's like, "So if I don't talk to you tomorrow, I'll talk to you on Monday!" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Okay bye" and he's like, "Bye". I have the narrator on right now, and it's so funny because I can get it to read out everything I say, and I have to tell Calum tomorrow about it, and I bet you anything he's gonna be like, "Oh really? That's crazy!" Oooh, I forgot to say this, at the beginning of the conversation Sarah was making fun of me so I was like, "My friend's making fun of me because I'm calling you, but that's because SHE's too scared to phone up the person that SHE likes...OOPS, I shouldn'tve said that!" and he thought it was funny, which totally freaked me out because no one EVER laughs at my jokes, so he must've really thought it was funny!

And then there was the part even earlier in the conversation when I said that Sarah said not to phone him because he would think I was like, a stalker, and he's like, "Oh yeah, well no you're not" and then she said that I was like totally obsessed and I told him that, and he's like, "Oh yeah, well no you're not", which is nice of him. I hate to say this, but I think he might actually like me! I just HAVE to tell him about how Sarah kept throwing toilet paper into my room at her house(the open closet space), and about how we were playing with stuffed toys and pretending they were people like him and Jordan and Alistair, and I serisouly bet he'll be like, "Oh really, you were? That's crazy!" He thinks everything is crazy, seriously. It would be so funny if I went up to him and was like, "Hey Calum, you're hot", and he was like, "Really? That's crazy!".

Just so ya'll know, his name is pronounced KAY-LUM, not CAL-UM, okay? I keep saying it wrong! Oh, and PS, I phoned Jordan, it's his birthday and I thought it would be nice, but he spent the whole time shooting his brother with his new dart gun. Freak. Calum is like the new Alistair Young of my life, man. But the only thing is, Duncan knows the address to this site, and if he tells Calum and he goes, I am SO dead because he'll read all this and be like, "Oh my god, this is crazy!". I am NOT calling him tonight, or else he'll think I'm obsessed, which he doesn't, and I'd like to keep it that way. I'll phone him tomorrow so I can have more things to tell him. I so totally cannot WAIT to hang with him. That is, if I do. Which he says we will. I think. Hopefully. Okay seriously, shut up now. Make me. SHUT UP!! Fine, be like that, Mr.Ryan Malcom wannabe!! Don't ask.

Okay, so I just remembered a few more things that me and Calum said last night, and I forgot to right it last night, and so I'm writing it now. Okay, so there was the part right after he picked up the phone and I accidentally sat on a talking toy, and Sarah started going hysterical, so then so did I, and I kinda had to tell him why, so I was like, "Okay, I just SAT on a talking toy!" and he's like, "Oh, you did?" and I was like, "Yes, and now it's talking to me, and I'm scared." and then when we were talking about how I didn't just like him because he was a movie star, I was like, "So, you know when I was talking to you today?" and he's like, "Yeah" and I was like, "I probably sounded like, really messed up, because I get so nervous when I'm talking to people I don't usually talk to, and I like, can't even say a sentence properly" and he's like, "Yeah, I get that feeling too sometimes". Oh, and me and Sarah's family were talking last night, (Me, her dad, her brother, and her) and we decided that I am now part of the Ehle family. I call her Dad dad, it's so funny, I wake up in the morning, and I'm just like, "Hi dad" and he's like, "Hi other daughter". I'm so happy to be Bek Ehle. Calum Ehle. Rebecca Grace Ehle. Calum Ehle Worthy. Calum Worthy-Ehle. Bek Worthy. Rebecca Worthy. Whatever, it's all good.

Okay, so I talked to Calum, again tonight, I phoned him, because I didn't know if he had phoned me because I'm at Sarah's house again(the big mansion one). So anyway, he picked up the phone and said hello, and then I was like, "Calum?" and he's like, "Yeah?" and I was like, "It's me, Rebecca" and he's like "Oh hi" and then I was like, "How are you?" and he's like, "I'm good, how are you?" and then I was like, "I'm good too." and I was like, "What are you doing?" and he's like, "Watching American Pie 2" and he said that he's seen the 1st one but not the second one and then I told him about how I don't watch stuff like that and he's like, "Oh." And then we were talking about what it was like to be an actor, and he said sometimes it's hard because you have to get the part, and then I was like, "So are you like, wondering why I'm like, talking to you?" and he's like, "No not really because my dad, kinda told me a bit" and I was like, "Oh really so what did he say?" and he's like, "Well he said that you saw my movie, and stuff" and then I was like, "Okay, but like, I'm not like one of those people who talks to people, like just because they're in movies or whatever", and he's like, "Oh yeah I know that", and I was like, "Okay that's good" and then we were talking about his new movie Daisy Winters, which is due out in Febuary, and he said it's about a girl who's mom is dying of cancer, and she does die, and he plays her BOYFRIEND. And I was like, "So do you think it's gonna be fun?" and he's like, "Oh yeah it's gonna be REALLY fun!" and I wanted to get really mad but then I didn't.

And then I said, "So you're in Mr.Chambers' class right?" and he's like, "Yeah, so what class are YOU in? and then I was like, "Mr.Cafley's" and he's like, "So is he good?" and I was like, "Yeah, but like sometimes he gets mad, because he lets us have fun, but then he gets mad at us for having fun!" and then he's like, "Oh, that's kinda weird." and then he's like, "So who do you think is the best teacher in grade 8?", and then I almost said Mr.Melnyk, but then I was like, "Ms.Robertson, because I'm like, in band", and he's like, "Yeah, I am too", and then I was like, "Yeah, I saw you at the concert on Tuesday, I was there" and he's like, "Yeah, so, what instrument do YOU play?" and I was like, "Clarinet" and he's like, "Yeah I like that instrument, my dad used to play it" and I was like, "Oh". So then we talked about the play that we went to, and he said about how when the lion died it was kinda weird because they were all crying even though they had just met him like 5 minutes ago, and I agreed, and then I told him about how a girl in grade 8 was going out with the actor who played Edmond, and he's like "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah it's so weird" and then I was like, "My friends think it's kinda weird for me to be talking to you when you like, don't even know me" and he's like, "Yeah, well I know you now, so it's not weird".

And then we were talking about Harry Potter, and he said he really liked it, and I said that I did too, but he hasn't seen the second one and he doesn't know why, because everytime he's gonna watch it, he doesn't, and he really wants to see it, and then I was like, "I've seen bits of the 3rd movie" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, but it's not really that good because I really don't like the new Dumbledore" and he's like, "OH YEAH, because he died!" and I was like, "Yeah" and he was like, "You know what?" and I was like, "What?" and he's like, "I have to go now, but could I like, call you tomorrow or something to talk to you again, because I really want to talk to you again, but I like, really have to go right now" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Okay, bye" and I was like, "Bye".

And then to Sarah I was like EEEEKK!!!! Because I still am OH MY GOD he wants to TALK TO ME again!!!

I have so much to tell you: Last night, I phoned Calum, but he wasn't there again, and his dad said that Calum would've phoned me except his dad lost my number, and he kept trying to find it, and he said that the night before when he had friends over he was like going through all his papers going 'Is this it?' and he also that Calum was like totally on his case about it, and so I gave it to him again, and his dad promised not to lose it this time, and he said that Calum would phone me today.

Okay, so today we went to go see "The lion, the witch, and the wardrobe" at the McPherson Playhouse, and it was really cool, because it was like a play/musical thing, and they were all such great singers. And on the way there, I was on the same bus as CALUM WORTHY!!! It was so cool. And then when we came back, Mr.Cafley sent me, Michael Minkley, Shannon, and Sandy to deliver messages to teachers, and I got sent to wait outside Ms.Sneddon's room. Sandy to Mrs.Hamptons. Michael to Mrs.Campbell, and Shannon to Mr.Chamber's. The classrooms are all right by each other. So I had delivered mine, and was waiting for Mrs.Hampton to come and take Sandy's so we could go back to class, and then Calum comes and goes to his locker, right, and I had nothing to do, so I went over to him, and it was like this:
I'm like, "Calum"
He turns around.
I'm like, "Hi, did your dad tell you that someone phoned for you, last night?"
And he's like, "Yeah"
And I'm like, "That was me"
He's like, "Oh, Rebecca?"
And I was like, "Yeah"
And he's like, "Oh, hi
And I was like, "Hi"
and he's like, "How ya doing?"
And I was like, "Good....how are you?"
And he's like, "Good, how are you?"
And I'm like, "I'm good"
And then I'm like, "I have to go back to my classroom now" except that I was like totally stuttering.
And then he's like, "So did my dad write down your phone number?"
And I was like, "Yeah"
And he's like, "Okay cool, I'll phone you."

And then I went and totally freaked out to Sandy, and I turned around and he was still there!! He hasn't phoned yet, but I don't think he's going to. He's a movie star, for freak's sake.

And I talked to Jordan yesterday and the day before and I said to him, "So, how come it seems like you like me, but then you don't?" and he's like, "If I didn't like you, I think I would tell you." Which means that he does, which is kinda weird because I thought he didn't. And then he looked over at me today, so I looked back, and he's like, "What?" when HE totally started staring first, I just decided to stare back. He stared at me the WHOLE day, probably because I was wearing this really nice skirt and boots for the field trip, which is probably why Calum actually talked to me today, and when he sees what I look like on Monday he'll be like "Right..."

Okay, so I'm at Sarah's house right now, and she wants to write something but she's too scared because it's like totally all over the internet so anyone can read it...ahahhaa.....Okay, I am Sarah one of the freaks I hate Callan Chalmers. My hero is me. Okay she's done...so I phoned Calum last night, he's that guy who's in lots of movies that's in grade 7 that goes to my school, but his dad answered, and Calum was at some pagent Christmas play thing, so his dad took down my number, and said he'd get Calum to phone me, but then I went out so I'm not sure if he did. I might phone him tomorrow or tonight or something if I can, but it'll be so weird because he has no idea who I am, and I might say something dumb like "Can I have your autograph?", and he'll think I'm a freak, which I am, but whatever. Only 19 days till World Idol!!!

Ugh, I haven't written in so long it's hard to start. Well last week, Jordan was making fun of Kristina Busby, but I said she was okay except for when she acts like a chicken and he's like, "Yeah, and a horse, and a dog, and whore...se". That is SO rude!! He tried to make it sound like he said horse again but I totally KNEW he was lying. And today, we were making up leads for new stories, and then we wrote something and passed it back and by the time the paper got back to it's owner it had a whole story on it, and somehow mine became this: The driver looked away for just a second. It was one second too long. The next second I was lying in a crumpled heap of metal. I had crashed head-on into the truck in front of me.(Me) Gas started pouring out of the truck and my cigarette light made a spark(Callum). Light everywhere, is this heaven?(Megan or David). No this must be an insane asylum(Nick). At least I know what happened.(Charlie). Maybe someone can help me or give me a ride to the hospital(Me). The car exploded(Callum). I died. Oh well, who cares. No one likes me anyway(Me). Go Australian Idol!(Callum) Oh well, at least I got to see Ryan win Canadian Idol(Me). Booooooo!(Callum). As you can see, I wrote down who said what.

And then for my own lead I wrote, "I'm sorry, but that's how it is. Guy Sebastian won Australian Idol and you can't change that." and underneath Callum wrote, "You are going INSANE", and so I wrote, "No you are", so he put half squares around it ([ ]), and wrote Copy Paste at the top of it!!! And last week Andrew was away and this was Jordan's theory for why: "He was at air cadets and then he went to go take a rest in his office, but then his chair fell back and he smacked his head, and he went a little cuckoo, and he was so mental they had to shoot him with a sniper." and then Alistair's like, "Long story short, he's not with us anymore".

And in Mr.Pama's class we had some woman named Jane come in and talk to us about STI's(Sexually Transmitted Infections) and I asked what oral sex was, and she told me, and it was SO disgusting seriously!! And then Callan was going nuts afterwards and he kicked my pen up and it landed right in the recycling bin, and he was laughing so hysterically about what a great shot it was, and then Jordan's like, "Whoa, someone's getting horny!", and I totally freaked out because I've NEVER heard him talk like that before!! And then Nick got in trouble because he was writing really gross stories about Jordan, and he wrote that Jordan asked his mom if they had any VIAGRA, and she said yes, which is SO gross I was totally flipping out after school and Callum's like, "You know, people actually USE that stuff", and I was like, "Yes I know you don't have to tell me" and he's like, "Yes I do.". Seriously, family life makes everyone act so weird.

I'm going to Sarah's house tomorrow for a sleep-over, I'll tell you about it on Sunday when I get back, it should be fun. Shannon came over today, and we were playing Neopets it was so funny because I kept killing myself in the pirate caves game and everytime I was so close to finishing the level I would fall on a spike or something and I would start swearing so loud and Shannon was laughing so much and even more when I was playing the golfing game and I kept missing the damn hole!! But then we were so surprised because I kept getting good shots and getting the ball in on one shot.

Oh, crap, I just realized I forgot my science binder, which I need to do my math homework and my science element project draft(I'm doing magnesium), which is do Monday. I brought home my English binder instead. I guess it was all that STI talk that made me mess up my stuff. Damn reproductive system!!!

Okay, so yesterday night I was sleeping over at Sarah's dad's house, and it's like a huge mansion thing it's so awesome, but anyway, I talked to Jordan. I asked him like why does he have to be so mad at me all the time, and he's like, "Well, I'm not really mad, it's just that it's really annoying when you say stuff that makes us all argue." and I was like, "Well, I don't mean to. I just don't like it when you're mad at me" and he's like, "Okay then, on Monday, let's just like, try to get along". And then I said some like 10 minute thing about how if I've been thinking about if I should make it be over, like us, and about how if it was over I wouldn't be able to talk to him again even if he wanted me to, but like now because it's not over yet I know I can phone him like any time I want even if he doesn't want me to, so like could he decide, because it wasn't that hard, and it's like how much time does he need, because if he did care then why couldn't he say it, because it's like he's said it before so why couldn't he say it now, and he might not be saying it because he didn't care, and if he didn't care then why couldn't he just say because then it would be over and we both wouldn't have to worry about it, and it's like it's not like very good like me not knowing whether he does or not.

And he said about Andrew when I said he was friends with Andrew, he's like, "Well yeah, sort of". And I was like, "Um I thought you guys were best friends," and he's like, "Well I'm actually better friends with Jonathan and Ben, but Andrew thinks we're like BEST friends." and I was like um oh my god but then I was like, "So if I asked you, like to call me sometime, would you do it?" and he was just totally like, "Yeah." and I just totally like whoa, because I like totally didn't think he would, so I said, "Because I like totally've been wanting to ask you to, but like I totally can't do it at school because then people would like KNOW, which I know you like totally don't want them to, which is like what it was like last week when Derek was asking me if I lived in a bumhouse, and then I said to ask you, but that was a really dumb thing to say because Derek doesn't know, and seeing as I said that now he might kinda know, which is like, bad, and, do you think I live in a bumhouse?" and he's like, "What?" and I was like, "Do you think I live in a bumhouse", because he's like totally seen my house, so he was like, "What, is that like a place for street bums and where they live?" and I'm like, "Yeah", and he's like, "Well, no, not really," and I was like ugh! not really? That is so messed up!

But then Sarah and Stephanie were trying to disconnect the phone, so I said to Jordan, "Okay, I'm gonna ask you to phone me tomorrow...are you going to?" and he's like, "Well, what time?" and I was like, "Well, I'm gonna be home all day, so whatever time is good for you," and he's like, "Well, I do have all those drafts to do, and so do you, and I might be going out, but I will try to call you tomorrow," and I was like, "Okay, so does that mean you DO care?" and then he's like, "Well, I don't totally NOT care," but then I said to him, "Okay, Stephanie and Sarah keep saying they're gonna unplug the phone, but I don't think they're gonna do it," and he's like, "I think they will" and then Stephanie did something that made the phone go all blowy staticy and freaked up, so I lost connection for like 2 minutes, but then it stopped, and I was like, "Um, did they..." and he was like, "Yeah, they did", in this totally 'I told you so' kind of voice which got me so mad. I started freaking and running around the house looking for Stephanie and Sarah because they disconnected us, and he said about how he would call me tomorrow if he could, and that he'd better go before they do it again, so he did.

And then so I went running around the house, and I was like, "I just spent half an hour on the phone with the most GORGEOUS man alive, and you two FREAKS just totally ruined it when we were just about to solve our problems!!!" But then I found them and they said sorry because Sarah tried to stop Stephanie from diong it, but she wouldn't listen. But then I was still happy because like he was gonna try and call me and he admitted that he still cared, which I know is hard for him to do, so I gotta give him props for that. Right? If ya'll got any advice or stuff about the whole Bek and Jordan thing, email me at redrose1345@hotmail.com, okay? Thanks ya'll!

Bek

There's not much to write about my group today, Stephanie wasn't there, so all we really did was work but Derek was being really hyper. We switched stations again, so now we're studying the Apatheid, or something like that. It's about the time when the blacks were segregated from the whites, or something like that. We had to make up questions, so Jordan suggested, "Why did the whites hate the blacks?" so I was like, "Um, maybe because they TRASHED their country???" and he's like, "GOOD!!" I was like:whoa. And then after at lunch when we were re-doing our heroes thing in the library, I was talking to Jordan about why he never picks up the phone, and before Derek came into the library I said to Jordan, "You know how you said that if one person messes up, then the whole group will get marks taken off?" and he's like, "Yeah." I was like, "Well, you know I can do that, right?" and he's like, "Yeah, you already HAVE!", so I was like, "Yeah but I could do it more." so he's like, "Okay..." and I said, "Well, suppose I said, if you don't pick up the phone next time I won't work?" and he's like, "Oh so now you're threatening me?" and I was like, "No, it's not a threat, it's more of a warning." I scared him so good. I know it's mean, but I'll think of another way to get him to call me later. This is just a beginning plan.

Okay, so today we switched station AGAIN, and now my group is learning about Hitler or something. And I was trying to talk to Jordan about Paul Martin, and I was like, "Do you like Paul Martin?" and he's like, "You ARE Paul Martin!" and I was like, "Um what the hell does that mean?" and he said nothing so I was like right...and Steph was looking something up in the dictionary in the H's for Hitler or something, and it went like this:
R:Ooh look hostile!!"
R:Oh no wait, that says HOPPER, I thought it said hostile ahahah!!"
S:I'm gonna get hostile if you don't shut up!!
That was SO funny! And then I said to Derek, I was like, "I want to go to Fanny Bay," and he's like, "That's rude, don't use profanity!!" and I was like, "I'm gonna kick your fanny if you don't shut up!!" and then we were laughing so much but then Mr.Cafley started looking at us so we shut up.

And then, when the sheet said to write what we thought about Hiler's propaganda, and we were asking Jordan what we do, he's like, "You have to write like if you think, like if you think it was really skanky or something", and I was like, "OH MY GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU SAID THAT!!! And he was like, "There's more than one meaning for that, but of course you only know that one.", so I was like, "Okay then, what's the other one mean?" and he's like, "Well why don't you look it up?" and he threw me a dictionary, so I opened it, and started looking, and Derek's like, "And Rebecca's like flipping through the pages going 'Okay, skank, skank...'", and they were both laughing so much, but then I couldn't find the word, so I threw it to Jordan and told him to find it, but he wouldn't. We got a zero on our Hero sheet, you know the one we messed up because of JORDAN? I had to hand it in to Mr.Cafley anyway, even with all that Clay Aiken and Australian Idol stuff on it!! And I told my group that, and Jordan's like, "You wrote about CLAY AIKEN?" and I was like, "DUH!! You told us to put down our own personal hero, so what else was I supposed to put? You?" That was SO funny. Oh my god, on E-talk Daily just now, Tanya Kim said the Muppets are coming to town so I turned around because I thought she said the MOFFATTS are coming to town ahhha! Oh my god I have such a hearing aid. Whatever...that means.

And Derek keeps saying, "Jeezus CHRIST bananas!!" but I thought he said something about RICE BANANAS so I kept saying that all day till they told me to shut up, so now I say, "Holy Ryan Malcom!!". It's either that or Heinz Winckler. I have to go to dinner now, but I might be back later, for Ryan Malcom's sake.

Okay, Sandy wants me to tell you that I called her a loser in science today by doing the loser sign on my head so she came over to my table and wrote meanie on my hand which is what she does when I do something like that. I WAS joking, by the way, in case you're wondering, which you probably were, because that's you people do, all the time, is wonder. Or something...like that.

Okay, so I'm talking to Sandy on MSN, and we're talking about what happened today at the library. So we all switched stations, so now my group is working on some hero thing, and we had to write about hero people and what they were, and Stephanie says right in the middle of working, "Rebecca's hero is Jordan.". I was SO pissed off at her I was like, "You are gonna DIE for that!!" And then Jordan messed us up so bad by telling us that we had to write about who we all thought were heroes and then put down one of our own so we did, and then Mr.Cafley came over and said that we had to RESEARCH heroes!! I got SO mad at Jordan I was like, "What the hell is wrong with you you're such a freak!!" and he's like, "Well you can't just rely on me, you have to take responsibility for your own work, you know, use your brain." and I was like, "Yeah but-", and he's like, "Do you HAVE a brain??" and I was like, "Um YA!!" and then we were talking about American Idol and he said it was stupid, and then he was like, "And now they're gonna have a WORLD IDOL!!" and I was like, "YES I KNOW IT'S SO COOL!!!" and he's like, "And it's gonna be on CHRISTMAS DAY!!" and I was like, "YES THAT IS SO AWESOME", and he's like, "Well, MERRY CHRISTMAS, you're gonna be getting a load of crap!!". I have no idea what that means. I asked him how he found out and he said the radio. Tomorrow I'm gonna bring my list of participating countries and winners for the World Idol show, just to show him I know it all, which I do. I'll just tell you it all to prove it:
America-Kelly Clarkson
England-Will Young
South Africa-Heinz Winckler
Poland:Alicja Janosz
Netherlands:Jamai Loman
Germany:Alexander Klaws
Normay:Kurt Nilsen
Lebanon-Diana Karazon
Belgium-Peter Evrard
Canada:Ryan Malcom
Australia-? Only 2 more days till the winner is announced!!

Of course, I've heard them all!! The best are Heinz, Kurt, Alicja, and Diana. Kelly Clarkson sucks, okay? She does not stand a CHANCE at winning. Ryan Malcom's cool, but I don't think he will. It better be GUY!! That is, if Guy wins, which he better!!

Derek kept saying that Santa Klaus was his hero it was so funny!! And I'm so glad we didn't have to write down personal heroes that would take forever with me. Mine are:
Jordan
Clay
Delta
Cosima
Guy
All the other Australian Idol contestants except for Bek, Lauren, and Paulini
Hilary Duff(DUH)
Ryan Malcom
Audrey de Montigny
Jenny Gear
Richie Wilcox
Billy Klippert
Shannon Noll(lol Nolly, I love him even though he's competing against Guy!!)

See, I have so many there's probably millions more but I can't count them all!! I had my hair curly today and Shannon made it so pretty in Math today but then she tried to fix it and she messed it up. I'm gonna curl it tonight again so I can look pretty for Jordan tomorrow!! Whoops. Sandy just asked me what I think I got on the English Lit test we had today. I think like probably almost perfect it was so easy it was multiple choice so I just picked the terms I thought were right for each paragraph. Or something...like that. Oooh, we had this Career Choice thing today, where we had to pick a career from the list to represent at the career fair, and of course I chose singing!! I hope I get to do it.

Well, I'd better get back to Neopets now...I only have 763,000np and I need to make more!! Lol I'm so under-exaggerative...if that's a word....

Okay, so I was thinking back to Friday, when we were doing that Civil Rights cheap thing, and I remembered some other things that were said...the first one was when we were in the library and then Jordan got Derek to go find some books, so he did, then Jordan's like, "Okay, that gets rid of HIM, now there's you two." But he didn't mean it meanly or anything. Then there was at the beginning of class in the morning when Mr.Cafley said to come out into the hall because he wanted to talk to me, which he did, and then I came back in and they asked what he said, and I was like, "He said that there are people in this group that I conflict with, and I have to learn not to conflict with them", which is what he did say, and Jordan's like, "People in this group that she can WHAT with?" And it was really ever so funny. Oooh and then there's this next good one, when Derek was drawing his Equator for Socials, and we had to find the distance between Fanny Bay and Victoria on the map, and he couldn't find Fanny Bay and he was getting so mad and he was like, "Where the hell's fanny bay?" and then Jordan's like, "Um what are you doing?" And Derek's like, "I'm trying to find friggin Fanny Bay!!" And Jordan's like, "Right...". I know it's kinda rude, but it was still so hillarious. Only 3 days till the Australian Idol winner is announced...they had 10 days to vote...it BETTER be Guy!!!

Okay...so I'm just about to go and lie in my room for a bit, but I thought I'd write something first. So in Socials we started this new unit called Heroes and Victims where you learn about people like Martin Luther King Jr. and stuff, and my group is Stephanie, Derek, and JORDAN!!! We're studying civil rights for Black americans, or something like that, and today I kept getting in trouble because Derek was being so stupid and kicking me in the library, and talking whale like Finding Nemo. And right the in the middle of silent reading, he runs in the door and yells, "P.Sherman 22 Wallaby Way". That's from Finding Nemo. And then Mr.Cafley's like, "DEREK!! Calm down before you think about coming back in again!!" And then when I was trying to read Derek kept leaning in my face and he was like, "JEAN CRETIEN". And then he was like, "GEORGE BUSH". So then I went, "GORDON CAMPBELL", and it was funny. And then he threw Stephanie's book in the garbage can and she was like OH MY GOD it was so funny you should've seen the look on her face she was like :0. And Derek yells, "Rebecca just threw Stephanie's book in the garbage can!" And I was like, "I did not. Don't lie." and then Mr.Cafley comes over and he says to me, "The other girls in the class are looking at you and wondering why you want to act this way." and I was like, "Um, and I care because???" Well I didn't really say that but I thought it and then I told Jordan and Derek and Stephanie what he said and they were like okay...and then Derek kept bulging his eyes and saying, "it's RUDE to stare". And then I started laughing but Cafley looked at me so I tried to turn it into a cough but it didn't work and he was like, "Okay Rebecca, I'll see you after school", and I was like DARN IT!!! But Derek had to stay for like half an hour so I got off better than he did. But it's good Jordan's in my group because he keeps us on track, even though I usually work unless Derek's being a retard, and Stephanie just sits there and stares into space. So Derek's like, "Stephanie's from Mars" and it was so funny, because then he's like, "Rebecca just fell out of a pinapple tree", and I was like "What? A Pama tree?" and then we were both laughing so much because it's like Mr.Pama you know. So in the library we watched some MLK video, "I have a dream today" or some cheap thing like that, and Jordan had the remote but Derek pressed the wrong button so it blasted and I just turned my head away because everyone was staring at us.

Anyway, that was my day. We get to work in groups again on Monday which is so cool because I have Stephanie who's my friend, even though she does nothing, and Jordan who is being nicer now, and Derek who's a retard but he's hillarious.

Okay, so I changed the girl character in LOTR, now I'm gonna try linking songs. Okay, I just tried to click and drag and it transferred the song to my folder...right...C:\Documents and Settings\Susan Mathieson\My Documents\My Music. No, that doesn't work either...I don't think you can do this...Okay, I just tried to open the file using Internet Explorer, and it copied it to my folder again....RIGHT....I want to go to McDonalds now to use my free coupons from Halloween...I'll work on this later...

Cosima

Oh my god, my mom is SO dumb, because on Neopets, when you log in to your account, if you type in the wrong password 6 times, it says "Sorry, you have tried too many times to guess this password for today", and so she typed in Alistair, which she thought was my password but it wasn't, and pressed the Enter key like 7 times because the comp was being slow, and it gave us that message, so now I can't get into my account for 6 hours!!! So the Australian Idol finale is in 10 days, because the Australian Public gets 10 days to vote, and they BETTER vote for Guy!!! If Shannon wins I will seriously die, because he's so cheap it's not allowed.

And so now I'm talking to Melissa on MSN, and we're talking about Jordan, because I'm telling her about how he can't make up his mind and stuff, but seriously I'm sure he will. It's only like a month and a half till Christmas. Last time we were mad at each other we made up on Christmas Eve, and it was so...I can't say cool...I don't know...romantic I guess, but I won't go any further than that, because it's secret, and only Shannon knows about it, and I don't mean Shannon Noll off Australian Idol, I mean Shannon my best friend from class.

Now I'm listening to Clay Aiken, "Measure of a man", which is on his CD, which is available now, but I don't have it yet, but I'm so getting it soon. I found out yesterday that the 3rd Harry Potter movie, which is The Prisoner of Azkaban, is coming out in June of 2004!! That is SO far away!! The other two came out mid-November, and that is SO unfair!! Now I'm listening to Clay Aiken, "I survived you", which is my favorite song on the CD, which I have on Kazaa. I should try to find out how to link songs on here so you guys can download them. I'll try some stuff later. I found out which Lord of the Rings Character I am, so I'll be posting that in the template later so you guys can see it. At first I got Pipin, but I didn't want him because he's ugly, so I'm going to post Orlando Bloom(he is SO hot), and Arwen, who's really pretty.

Well, Melissa's off MSN now so there's not much I can say, so I'm going to work on the template and linking songs to here. I'm listening to Clay, "No more sad songs". Ahoy!!

Okay, so last week on Australian Idol, Paulini got voted off, and I was like YES, but this week, Cosima dropped out. Like she quit. Seriously I was like OH MY GOD. She says she has a throat virus and decided to leave the competition. Now I only have Guy left. Oh well, there's no competition with him against Shannon. Shan has no chance at all. GO GUY!! But Cossie's definatley going to get a record deal for sure. Oh, and Richie Wilcox from Canadian Idol left a personal message for me today on the Canadian Idol Message Board, saying thanks for starting the Smiling Faces and being a good fan and stuff, which is so AWESOME, because I love Richie so much.

And in Drama today, Jordan did his Pablo Picasso thing, which was good because he only missed one line, and when he forgot Ms.Sneddon said who's got his script, and it was so funny because I did, because I had picked it up just to see if he got everything right, and so she asked, "Who's got Jordan's script? Cue Him". And I was like, "Oh, I do." And he looks at me like, "What the hell are you doing with my script?" but it was okay because I gave him the line and he was okay after that. Before the performance I was kinda talking to him a bit, because I told him how much I wanted to be Pablo, and he's like no you don't he's annoying, and then he sat down, and I sat down, and I was like, "So are you still mad at me?" and he's like, "Huh. Not really." So I was oh okay, that's good. And after he finished he was like, "I would have done anything to switch parts with you, seriously.". And I was saying about how he got the best music because it's Don Mclean, "Vincent", and that's the song that Clay did, AND he was wearing the exact same shirt Clay was wearing on the night of, "Here, there, and everywhere", which is SO cool because Clay is so awesome you know?

And today in class in the morning we had this substitute Mr.Burgess and he looked exactly like a cross between Josh Groban and Marc Devigne, which is SO cool. And so when we were playing this game some of the teachers came in to give us reading assesments, and I got to go to the computer lab to work with Mrs.Robertson which was cool, because she's like one of my best friends, which I know is dumb. But whatever.

So Ryan Malcom's new video, "Something More", is on the Hit List now. It's number 20, and it was on yesterday but I didn't see the beginning of the show so I missed it. And now I'm downloading a whole bunch of Lilix songs, because they are so cool, but one of the songs says it's going to take like 243 hours, and I DON'T want to wait that long, so I might try something else soon. So now I'm looking for Evanescence, "Tourniquet", which I already had but somehow it got deleted. So now I'm downloading it.

Now I'm listening to Eden's Bridge, "Breath of heaven". For homework tonight I have Math and Science. I would've finished my math if the stupid counsellor hadn'tve pulled me out of class like she ALWAYS DOES!!! She keeps wanting to talk to me and it's like no get away LOOOOSA!!!!!

Anyway...I think me and Jordan will be okay now, but I really shouldn't say that, in case it's not. Or something...like that. And now I'm listening to Hilary Duff, "The Math", which is a cool song, because it is. Or something...like that. Okay really, I should really stop saying that. So Shannon came over today, which was cool, because she's cool. Mr.Pama says I'm obsessed with the Idol shows. It's not obsessed, it's called a hobby. It's like, get one!! But seriously, it's not just like turning the TV on or something you actually have to look these people up and download their stuff and see who they are and what they're like and stuff. Effort, man. effort.

Hi mates, I'm back!! I just got off the Australian Idol site, and I found out all the songs they did last night. Paulini did, "At last", which is one of my favorite songs she BETTER not ruin it, and "Almost like being in love", which I don't know. Guy sang, "Hit the road Jack", which I don't know how anyone can SING that song, and "The way you look tonight", which is another favorite but I know he'll do it to justice. Oh yeah, Levi's rapping. Oh yeah, Bobby Brown!! Okay seriously, sorry. So ANYWAYS, Cosima did, "L-O-V-E", which MIGHT be a Delta song I'm not sure, because I know Delta did a song called that, and "Smile", which Ruben did on American Idol. She, obviously, was probably the best of the night AS usual. And Shannon, who I hate his singing so bad, sang, "New York, New York", which I think I know, and "Under My Skin", which I also might know. Right now I'm listening to Kelly Cavuoto, "Stupid Girl", also known as, "Mascara", but when you download songs on Kazaa they always have the wrong name. Maybe I should go see how they did on the message board, the Australian one.

Now I'm watching and listening to Kimberly Caldwell, "Anymore". Now I'm listening to Delta Goodrem, "Predictable". Yesterday I went through my archives and looked at all my stuff about Alistair. How I wish I had still to write. Whatever means. I think it means I miss Alistair and want him to come back. How procabulious. I haven't used that word in like so long. This song, "Predictable", is the perfect Jordan song. He says he'll call me, and does he? No. He says he loves me, and does it? No. Well, I'm not too sure about that. He can't decide whether he does or not. You're just so predictable, in every way I, I want you to know I know your game, it's so unbelievable, how you change, you won't get away with loving me. I'm SO glad I'm doing that at the talent show. And the same with, "Fatboy". Here's a perfect line for him: You say that money isn't everything, but I'd like to you live without it, you think you can keep on going living like a king, ooh babe but I strongly doubt it. Okay, I'll shut up now.

Now I'm listening to Delta, "My Big Mistake". When I go to my time zone page on sitemeter.com, it says I've got someone from Australia visiting my site. Do you think....no, it's not possible. Unless Duncan told him about it because he knows it, which he might've, and the pinpoint on the map is right on Adelaide....hmmm...I wonder what he thinks if he DOES read it? He probably thinks Jordan is a jerk, which he is. He probably thinks I like him better, but I don't. Alistair will always be the best. I wonder if he watches Australian Idol? He probably likes Guy and Cosima, just like me. Well, at least I hope. Everybody keeps saying I should phone him on a payphone, because I do have money, but I'm not sure...I might get in trouble, but why would I if it's my money? I do want to find out if he watches it. The best thing to do is ask. I'll do it before next weekend, if I can muster up the courage, which is doubtful, but blimey, I'll try, mates.

Okay guys, the vote has been decided! I'm doing Delta Goodrem, "Predictable", and Silverchair, "Tomorrow", also know as "Fatboy", done by Kelly Cavuoto on Australian Idol, as I've told you. I have no idea when the talent show's gonna be, but at least I'm prepared!! I'm talking to my sister Teresa on MSN now, so I gotta go! Later, mates!!

Okay, so yesterday I went to Sarah's house for her sleepover birthday party, and Amanda was there, and Sarah's cousin Clare too, and so we got there and we watched TV for a while, then I went to the Australian Idol site and watched some of the new videos from last week's show, then we had pizza, then cake, then we went to the mall and I got this fortune pen and you ask it questions and it says yes or no. See, listen, I'm asking it now does Jordan still like me, and it says, "The spirits tell me yes". That's what it says everytime I ask it that so it must be true, right? I'm so glad you agree with me, mate. It makes things much easier, whatever that means. I'm going to have so much fun with that in class. It's like I'm doing my work but then I get bored so I play with my pen. So anyway, after the mall we went to the cornmaze at like 8:30 which was when the scary stuff started and in the graveyard there was this guy Donnie with a mask, and he walked around, and if you called him Bob he chased you he was so scary he was following me and then I ran but I tripped and I landed in the bushes and Amanda landed on top of me and he was like 2 feet away I was so freaked out so I like scrambled up and ran so fast. And then there was Jason with the chainsaw from Friday the 13th, and he walked around the inside of the fence by the lake sticking the chainsaw through at people and scaring them. I kept talking Australian all the way through and people thought I was Australian, seriously. I saw a lot of people from my school there, too.

And then we went home and watched Final Destination which was so scary because all these people die but still it was funny, and then after I wanted to watch Third Watch but then they wouldn't let me because they said it was too boring so then they changed it to King of the Hill which is such a cheap show, then they watched Family Guy, which was okay, and then they fell asleep so I watched Clone High. And then in the morning we watched Final Destination 3, which wasn't as good as the first one but still, it was a good sequel. And Sarah gave me this picture of Orlando Bloom which she said was so ugly but really, it wasn't to me, so I kept it, and I got some yummy chocolate too so that was good. And then I came home. Oh, and while at the Corn Maze I got a Hot 103 water bottle from Chanine Carr from HOt 103 which is cool even though I don't really like that station I like the guys that work there like her and AJ and Crash who do the morning show.

Okay, so I put down a list of songs for the talent show and I cut them into slips and then I put them all in hat and soon I'm going to pull 2 slips out to see what songs I'm going to do. Now I'm listening to Levi Kereama, "To the moon and back", which is such a cool song because, you know, LEVI did it on AUSTRALIAN IDOL, and how cool is that. Beyond cool, mate, beyond cool. If anyone's interested in the Australian Idol website, which you're probably not, even though you should be because it's good some mighty good videos(Haha Mark Holden), it's http://au.australianidol.yahoo.com. Now I'm listening to Levi, "Rock Your Body". This was when he did the Justin Timberlake song, which of course everyone loved, because you know, Levi could sing Knees Up Mother Brown and everyone would love it. I got that from Dicko, who's one of the judges. And now I'm listening to Levi, "Every little step", which, like I said before is the one where he raps about Bobby Brown, which he's doing now he is SO COOL!! The audience is going mad, honestly. I think in this performance he took off his jacket and all the girls went nuts. Oh, how I wish I was there.

I just finished listening to Kelly Cavuoto, "Fat Boy", and now I'm listening to Kelly Cavuoto, "Mascara", which was her last song before she got kicked off. Fatboy is on my list of songs for the talent show. I think I'll sing it regardless if it comes out of the hat or not, which I really should attend. I'll be back later to tell you the results! Bye mates!!

Okay, so now I'm listening to Cosima De Vito, "What's love got to do with it". She's my favorite on Australian Idol, which I'm totally into. I watch the videos on the site and download the songs on Kazaa. Millsie(Rob) got voted off last week, and it was really sad to see him go. And before that it was Levi, who was my other favorite, and before that was Kelly, who was my 3rd fave. Now Cosima is my only favorite left. In Drama I'm doing Grace Hopper for my famous person skit thing, she was a US Navy Scientist in a field dominated by men or something like that, and today in drama after I had set up my stage which we had to do today, me and Andrew, who is Jordan's best friend, were talking for like 20 minutes about video games because he never knew I liked them. Now I'm listening to Kelly Cavuoto, "Tomorrow(or Fat Boy)". Anyway, Andrew was telling me all the good shooting games to get and stuff, and Jordan was just acting mad even though he said he wanted me and Andrew to get along, and we were, but now he's probably jealous. Ugh, there's just no winning with that guy. I would phone him except our phone lines are disconnected so I can't. I sent him a letter last week so he should've got it by now, and I sent him an email yesterday telling him not to phone me. He was at least talking to me today, which is a raise.

Now I'm listening to Levi Kereama, "Every little step". He raps about Bobby Brown halfway through the song, which is cool. He got voted off the next night though, which is so not cool. Oh yeah, here he goes. "Everybody wants to know what's goin' down, something something Bobby Brown..." OH YEAH!! GO LEVI!! I wonder if Alistair watches it? He probably does even though he doesn't like stuff like that. He probably likes Shannon and Paulini, who I hate. He probably likes Guy too, who is okay. And maybe Cosima, who rocks. And maybe Levi and Kelly, who rock too.

Now I'm listening to Clay Aiken, "Measure of a man". His CD came out last week the day after Ryan Malcom's 25th birthday. Clay's is beating Ruben's!! Oh wait, Ruben's hasn't come out yet HAHAHAH!!! I got my Clarinet back today, after playing Alistair's trombone and the school trombone for 2 months almost. Alistair's trombone is Benny, the school one is Billy, my clarinet is Cosima, my locker's name is Gary, my lock's name is Richie, my desk in Mr.Cafley's room is named Millsie, and my desk in Mr.Melnyk's room is Mikey, after Mikey Bustos from Canadian Idol. And according to Alistair Hayward, who's in my class and who's locker is 2 away from mine, my name is Jenny Gear. Yeah, I know I'm weird, but hey, I'm JENNY GEAR!!! I have to find something to name Clay....ummm.....my backpack can be Clay, yeah!! And my locker SHELF can be, uh...BILLY!! No wait, I can't name my locker shelf, never mind...now I'm listening to Delta Goodrem, "Predictable". She still has cancer, and now she's lost all her hair because of chemotherapy but she's got a wig that looks like Celine Dion's hair so that's okay. She went to the Aria awards a few days ago in Australia, and won every award except top album. She didn't feel like getting up for the 4th award, I don't know why, I think she was too weak. She had some sort of problem with her dress, I don't know what. It's weird that she's only 18 and all this is happening to her already. But she'll be okay though, hopefully.

Okay, so Colin Holmes, that grade 7 guy I like is in hospital because he has a lung tumor or something so he's sick but they said he'll probably be okay it's just that the tumor thing is getting bigger right now, but he should be out by November, and if he's not there'll be a letter from the hospital saying why. I'm talking to Sandy on MSN, who just said there was an earthquake on Neopets, which is bad, because last time that happened Maraqua got ruined and that was a cool underworld world. Sandy's sooo lucky for Drama. She's Amelia Earhart, and she gets to wear my leather jacket and my combat boots and use my Nelly Furtado CD for her music, and I don't even know what I'm going to use for MY music, probably some cheap army music thing, which is cheap. Jordan gets to be Picasso, who is like my favorite person ever aside from Clay and Jenny and Sandy, and better yet he gets to use Don McLean, "Vincent", which is actually about Van Gough, but it was the closest they could get, and I love that song because Clay did it, so Bugsy doesn't know how lucky he is, seriously.

Now I'm listening to Hootie and the Blow Fish, "I only want to be with you". It's a cool song, but seriously, I have to go now. I heard if on 98.5 The Ocean, which is the soft rock station that like only I listen to at my school out of all the kids they listen to Hot 103.1 which is some cheap rap pop station, and I hate Rap, except Eminem, which they hardly play, so I listen to 98.5. And remember, I'm Jenny Gear. And if you must call me by name, I'm now REBEKAH, or Bek, as in Rebekah LaVauney from Australian Idol, who got voted off with Kelly, which was cheap because I liked them both. Okay seriously, I'll shut up now. Ahoy!!

I added a Neighbors thing to my site! I'm Delta Goodrem's character!

Jordan is SUCH a jerk, seriously. Yesterday I told him that I phoned Rylan and he turns around and totally starts telling him all these lies like, "Oh, she's going to lead you into a death trap" and all this other garbage, and he kept asking what I talked about, when it's totally NONE of his business who I talk to, and just because he's jealous that doesn't mean that he can try and ruin everything for me. So I went up to him after school at his locker, and I was like, "What's your problem?", and he's like, "You're annoying, go away", so I was like, "You're such a liar! Why do you tell people these lies about me when you don't even know what you're talking about?" and he's like, "You're annoying". So I was like, "YOU are a liar," and he's like, "Yeah, and YOU have been dumped." So then I was still like, "You're a liar, you say things to me you don't even mean!" but then he just ignored me. You know, I could so totally blackmail him. I could tell his friends EVERYTHING he used to say to me on the phone, and I don't think they would find it very, "Cool". So if he wants to tell lies about me, and ruin MY life, I can do the same with him, but I'll actually tell the TRUTH about what he said. I know it wouldn't solve anything, but it's payback. Maybe I should leave a message on his machine telling him that if he doesn't act normal I'll tell his friends everything, so he should really think about that. That would freak him out so bad. We just finished a book called Door In The Wall, an old fantasy english book with old english language like Thou and Thee and cool stuff like that. It's WAY better then the other two books we've been reading in class, "Leroy and the old man", and "Sixteen is spelled O-U-C-H". We read through the book and listened to the tape at the same time, which was good because the reading guy made it sound so real with old english knight/monk/squire/page sounding voice so it was good. Stupid Bugsy. That's what all the guys call Jordan because he tried to save a bug in Grade 6 camp. I miss bugsy. No, I don't. Yes, I do. I don't know. You know what? Whatever.

Okay, so I'm sitting here listening to Jenny Gear, and waiting for Jordan to phone back. I phoned him but he wasn't home so I left a message. Jenny is performing at the Ship Pub in St.Johns on October 2nd. Kids are allowed, but I'm not sure how much the cost is to get it. My Tyler Hamilton fan friend in Alberta was asking me about any concerts I want to go to, so I said that. It's doubtful we will though, I mean, how am I going to get to St.Johns, Newfoundland? It's a nice thought, though. And now I'm listening to the studio version of Karen-Lee Batten, "Come away with me". The best studio versions of the CI Greatest Moments CD are Mikey and Jenny. The rest of them aren't very clear. This one is allright, though. She's pretty good.

I made a CD for Britney the other day, and she went nuts and said about how good I was. And then she picked out her favorite songs(she didn't like the Jenny ones because she didn't know them), and she said she'll give me another blank CD on Tuesday so I can record another CD with just her favorite songs that I did. I have to make a third one also, the other I'm going to send in to Toronto. It's going to have 2 Audrey songs and one Jenny song. I think I'll call Britney now. Okay, she's not home, so I left a message. Hopefully she'll call me back because I want to tell her what happened with Jordan. Now I'm listening to Delta Goodrem, "Not me, not I". She won A LOT of awards(they're called Lodgies in Australia). If you want to know what they are, go to www.deltagoodrem.com. She still has cancer, but I think she's getting better.

It's 7:40pm here, and it's already dark, which is weird, but it's okay. I think I'll listen to the Billy Klippert/Ryan Malcom CD now, it's cool. After that I'll listen to the Canadian Idol CD, which I made. I should really get the Greatest Moments CD, but I should save up my money to get Ryan Malcom's CD which comes out on the 30th, but then again there's Jenny and The Whiskey Kittens which comes out on December 17th, but I might get it for Christmas, but that's a long way away, it's not even Halloween yet, not that I want it to be because if you wear a costume to school, you look like a dork and if you don't you look like a snob who thinks they're too cool for Halloween. Ugh, you totally can't win at that school. Ugh, nobody's on MSN. Ugh, why do I keep saying ugh!

Now I'm listening to Billy Klippert, "Have you ever seen the rain". HE ROCKS, as I'm sure you all know. We have no school on Monday. I only have CAPP for homework, which is doing some dumb thing in my planner. Ooh, now it's at Billy Klippert, "Levon". I LOVE THIS SONG!! He sang this on Elton John night, when Jenny sang Rocket Man, which was the day before she got voted off.=(

Now it's at Billy Klippert, "Hooked on a feeling." Ryan did that song on the same night, and the next night Audrey got kicked off. Oh well, at least it wasn't Gary. All these songs are going by date, BTW. Maybe I'll go back to the board now, or Neopets. I might be back later. Ahoy!

Oh my god, so today, in CAPP, Nick asked me if he could use my Sharpie, but then I had to tell him that Mr.Cafley stole it, which he did, and Jordan says to Nick, "You call them sharpies? My BROTHER calls them Sharpies!" So I'm like, "Okay, and what do you call them?" and he's like, "Permanent Ink Markers, which is their real name". HAHAHA oh my that's hillarious I almost died it was so funny.

I called him today, and it was funny because his mom answered and she called him and he's like, "What?" So then she goes, "Well, what do you think, Jordan? The phone just rang and I'm calling you". HAHA it sounds like something Alistair's mom would say. So anyway, he came on and I was like "Hi", and then there's this big pause because he doesn't know why I'm phoning when he said he didn't want to talk to me, so then I go, "Okay, I know you don't want to talk to me but you never really gave me a chance to explain myself before you totally went nuts, and I know you said I'm annoying, but it's just that whenever I see you I don't know what to say because I don't know if you'll say anything back to me so I usually say something stupid because I think that's the only way I'll get you to talk to me," and he's like, "Okay..."

And then I was like, "And I talked to Sandy and people and asked them if I was being stupid and they said I kind of was to bring my kitty to school and stuff, and I didn't really know I was being stupid, but now I kind of do, and I know you said you don't want to talk to me, and I've been trying to forget about this whole thing, and I've been trying to think about other things and be happy, but I can't do it, because I can't pretend everything's okay when I know it's not, and it's not like you can just forget about this, I KNOW you can't and neither can I, so are you still mad?" and he said, "Not really", and then I said, "Well, were you EVER mad?", and he's like, "Well only when people were following me and I was sick of it." And then I said, "So then we're okay now?" and he's like, "Well, what does that mean?" And I said, "Well, are things the way they were before?", and he says, "I don't know,", so I said, "Well, do you WANT things the way they were before?", so he's like, "What, EXACTLY the way they were before?" so I said, "Well no, they don't have to be EXACTLY the same way, what would you want different?" so he says, "Well for one thing, I don't want your friends following me and pointing at me, like Britney, she always glares at me, and Stephanie and that other girl keep calling me Jesse!" And then I was laughing so much because Sarah and Stephanie always call my guy friends Jesse haha! But I SERIOUSLY don't know why.

So then it was his dinnertime, so he had to go, but I think things are okay now. See, what did I tell you? But then again, I went back to him and convinced him to be with me again, but I could totally tell he didn't like things being bad, he's ALWAYS staring at me in class I can tell and Sandy can tell too. I'll probably phone him tomorrow in the morning, because I'll get up early and phone at like 11am because they'll probably not be eating breakfast then or maybe I'll just wait till 6 or 7 like I usally do but then he might be doing his homework but whatever I have to phone sometime well I don't really HAVE to but I want to you know? Well, you probably don't, but whatever.

Mr.Pama wasn't here today.=( I kinda knew at the end of block E that he wasn't coming because I hadn't seen him all day and I usually do and right when the bell rang, and Mr.Mark came in!! I was so mad seriously, but he was cool. Except for the fact that he thought he was so totally cool because he played soccer and was a surfer and had cool shoes or so he said hahaa. We were talking about advertising spoofs and how we had to make one. Me and steph are doing Cool Whip, except we're calling it Oil Whip hahha!!

And me and Jordan were also talking about how Mr.Melnyk is unfair because he picks favorites and gets mad at people for no reason and how he likes everybody but us which is so true!!

Lizzie McGuire on today and it was one of the new ones where she's 15, and Miranda was having a party and she invited everyone but Larry Tudgeman the nerd and he was so sad it was so sad because he was like almost crying but then they disguised him(Lizzie and Gordo did), so Miranda wouldn't know it was him but then she found out and first she was mad but then she realized she was mean for not inviting him. Now I'm listening, "Top 11 - Canadian Hits Medley". It's the Top 11 of CI at the finale. Now I'm talking to Jennifer Miller from my school lo lshe just called me a COP CHICKEN hahah so that's my name now on MSN!! LEE HANEY IS A COP CHICKEN!! Hahah that's funny!! Well not really but whatever. Lol I just called Jen a valley girl now she's getting mad well I'd better go!!