Okay, so today I auditioned for Totally Teen Talent 2004, which is a talent show of Victoria. Or something...like that. Anyway, I sang "Lean on me", I did it for GEORGE HUFF, man!! He taught me the dip and hands thing and the bouncing and the jumping and spinning, and the "Listen!" with the pointing of the finger, which I was totally too scared to do but if I get through to the finals I will so totally bring it. GORDIE TUPPER was there, man!!! As one of the judges!! He's one of the news guys from CH, he's so cool, I was like "Oh my god, it's Gordie Tupper! That's so cool!" and they were all like laughing at me and Gordie was like "Yay, someone knows me!"

It was so weird when we got inside because there were the people who were waiting to audition, and then there was this TV which showed the auditions, which were in the room beside it. The audition room was so cool, there were like lights all around it and they had a big sign saying your name which they focused on before you started. The first two performers were like these Britney wannabe dancers who danced to Britney music, and then there was this girl who sang "Reflection", only she sucked because she was too loud and forgot the words and shut her eyes when she was singing, which you totally should NOT do after what happened to that guy in the American Idol auditions. He was singing badly with his eyes shut and when he opened them Randy and Simon were gone and Paula was just like sitting there staring at him. When the sucky girl came out she was like crying because she knew she sucked and her like 6 friends who me and Mom thought were going to audition were like trying to convince her that she didn't suck, even though they knew she did.

My mom said that I was good, and that I did everything a good performer knew how to do, which is like stare straight at the camera because it makes you look hot, and smile, and dance, which I didn't even know I was doing, and my mom was expecting me to like stare at the floor like I did at my school talent show, but when I didn't she was like "Whoa, I didn't know she could do that!", so that's cool.

Plus, I think that doing this made Calum think better of me, because usually he's not that interested in what I have to say, but when I told him yesterday I was going, he like totally paid attention and asked me about it and seemed kind of impressed, which is really a good thing for him.

So, if they decide I don't suck, they'll contact me by April 1st, and I really hope they do.

Song of the day: George Huff - "I can love you like that". That is just the best song in the world right now, man.

Okay, the results show...you know what? Screw the friggin recap. Matt Rogers, Diana Degarmo, and Camille Velasco were in the bottom 3, I was pissed that Matt and Diana were there, so Diana got put back, I was very happy, then Matt Rogers got friggin SENT HOME!!! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH AMERICA???? THEY DON'T KNOW TALENT WHEN THEY SEE IT?? Shit, I cried a lot, I am SO pissed. Alistair Hayward is going to flip out at school tomorrow, he loved Matt almost as much as I did. John Stevens is safe. I'm happy for him. Matt is gone. DAAAAAAMMMMNNNN!!!!!

Song of the day: Matt Rogers - "Amazed". MATTTTTTYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

Okay, so the top 11 show:

Diana Degarmo - She sang Martina McBrides "Broken Wing". She was SO good. She's become my new girl favourite since the top 32, I love her almost as much as Carmen.

George Huff - He sang "I can love you like that" by John Michael Montgomery, most recently done by All For One and Boys II Men. Oh yeah, I'm good. I heard that song like the day before he sang it, he did it so good but it was weird because he couldn't spin around because it was a slow song, but during the judges comments he kicked his legs up into the air it was funny. I think I liked him so much because the last time I listen to that song it made me cry about Jordan so it meant a lot to me that George was trying to make me feel better. I'm so messed up. But really, I did feel better. Ah, the emotion. SHUT THE HELL UP, REBECCA!!!

Fantasia Barrino - She sang "Always on my mind" by Willie Nelson. She was like trying to be cool by doing a slow song but she sucked and I still hate her and want her to die.

John Stevens - He sang Roger Miller's "King of the road". When my friend from Ohio told me he was doing that song I downloaded Dean Martin's version of that and I so knew he was gonna rock, and he DID!! He was so HOT!!! And so AMAZING!! In his package he said he always hated his red hair when he was younger because old ladies would come and mess it up. Haha, me and Sarah should do that to all the red heads we see. Watch out, Calum!!

Camille Velasco - She ruined one of my favourite songs, "Desperado", most recently done by Jeffery Dingle in the auditions. I loved that guy, man!! I HATE her, even if she does look nice with her hair straightened.

Jon Peter Lewis - He sang "She believes in me". He was kinda boring. There's not much I can say. He has two brothers, a blonde guy named Christian and a black haired guy who's really hot and looks like Clayton Akerman. Mmm, Clayton.

Jennifer Hudson - She sang "No one else on earth", althought it sounded more like "Earf", but whatever, she was still awesome.

Matt Rogers - Hee!! He sang "Amazed", which Josh Gracin sang last year. Josh's version was better, but Matt was really sweet and he was in the Rose Bowl so I hope he stays.

Jasmine Trias - She sang "Breathe" by Faith Hill. She was kinda boring, and couldn't hit the high notes. Still got the flower. She says having behind her left ear means she's taken, right ear means single. At the auditions in Ha-wa-ee it was in her left, now it's in her right. I wonder what happened? Her brother's hot. His name's Renato or something.

Latoya London - She sang "Ain't going down till the sun comes up". I am going to KILL her for ruining a Josh Gracin song!! Josh was in the audience and he pretended to like it but I totally knew he thought his version was SO totally better. What is up with these people and their ruining of Josh Gracin songs? Jeez.

Amy Adams - She sang "Sin Wagon". I knew she'd be good at country, it's her thing, and she rocked, man. Her hot boyfriend was in the audience too. I have no idea what his name is so I'm just gonna be like mmm, hot boyfriend.

I think that's my longest recap ever. Yes, I know I put all the song title in Italics but that's because I LIKE using Italics because they're from ITALY!! I LIKE IT, DAMN IT!! Whoo, I'm good now. Now watch Kingdom Maine Hospital tonight at 10 on CTV or I'll never let any of you read my recaps again! I mean it! GO!!!

My song of the day - Diana Degarmo - "Think". Awesome song, man, awesome song. The words are so damn hard to figure out though.

Okay, so who got voted out tonight...well, first they did some group performances and John Stevens did this total bass note it was so low it was like tenor sax man, it was so scary I thought it was George and I saw Johnny doing it I was like Holy Crap how can he do that? And then they showed the top 12 music video thing, and then Clay performed Solitaire, which was so good and he was so hot.

Diana Degarmo - Safe
Latoya London - Safe, I can't believe I have to see her ugly face again for another week.
Jon Peter Lewis - Safe.
Leah Labelle - In the bottom 3, HA!!
John Stevens - SAFE!! YAY!!!
Fantasia Barrino - God, she's safe, damn it.
George Huff - HEEEEE!!! SAFE!!!
Matt Rogers - Hee, he's safe.
Jasmine Trias - Safe.
Then they skipped Jennifer Hudson and Camille Velasco and went to Amy Adams - Who's in the bottom three, stupid voting pigs.
Camille - Safe.
Jennifer Hudson - In the bottom three, that is not fair.

First one to go back to the couch - AMY ADAMS, YAY!!! Then Leah and Jennifer sang for the audience before one of them was kicked off.

And that person was...LEAH LESUCK!!! YAY!! Haha, she was crying like a stupid baby, Katie Webber was sitting with Leah's stupid Bulgarian pop star freak mom, I can't believe Katie's Leah's friend.

That was one of the best results shows ever!!

La dee da dee da...I'm just waiting for Sarah to come over so we can watch the results show together at 8:30. Oh good, mum's back. She's been out for like 4 hour when she said she was just going to the store. Seriously. Carmen Rasmusen has a record deal now, she finished her CD on March 1, and it's coming out in the summer. I am so getting it. She so should've won AI2. I have no idea who the label is with, but Josh Gracin from AI2 got signed by Street Records, and RJ Helton from AI1 got signed by some gospel thing, Heinz Winckler from South African Idol is going international, Justin and Tamyra from AI1 are looking for new record labels because they got dumped from theirs, and CLAY AIKEN is performing on tonight's show. Whoo, glad that's over. Maybe I'll phone Calum, I haven't talked to him in like 2 weeks.

Okay, the first top 12 show:

Latoya London - She sang "Ain't Nobdy", which was a good song, because she ISN'T anybody. It was just...nothing. Seriously, she sounded just the same as every other black girl singer there ever was. All I can say is whoop-dee-frickin-do.

Amy Adams - She sang "You make me feel brand new". She was good, she's so cool. I heart her, I want her to stay.

Jon Peter Lewis - He sang "Drift Away", and he danced like he did before he was so cool. Simon said he was the dark horse to win the competition.

Camille Velasco - Her song was "Son of a preacher man". The singing was aiight, as Randy Jackson would say, but I just can't get over the fact that she looks like someone's jabbing needles in her back.

Matt Rogers - Hahaha, oh my god he's so cool. I totally forget what he sang, some tough guy song, he was awesome. Oh wait, it was "Hard to handle". When it got to Simon he was like "HI SIMON", it was so funny.

Jennifer Hudson - She was awesome. She sang "Baby I love you". It's weird, she's the only black girl in American Idol history I've ever liked.

Fantasia Barrino - Get out of my face, you FREAK!! And take your god damn bobo dance with you!!! She turned "Signed Sealed Delivered" into "Shighned, Shealed, Delivered". She's so annoying, I just want her to get voted off so I never have to see her ugly face again.

George Huff - He bounced and spun around, he's so cool! On www.idolforums.com we were talking about what he should sing, and I said that I could hear him singing "Sittin' on the dock on the bay" and then he did!! Thanks Georgie!!

John Stevens - I am so going to shoot myself for saying this but he was just a tad...boring. I'm sorry Johnny! He sang "Lately". He's still hot though! Randy said he was never gonna be Frank and Dean, but Simon really likes him. I love Johnny, and I know he's gonna get through.

Leah Labelle - She sang something like "You keep me hanging on". And in her package at the beginning, she went on and on about her freaking Bulgarian parents who "escaped" from communism. She was horrible, and Simon told her to pack her bags. That's hillarious.

Jasmine Trias - She sang "Inseperable" which Johnny SO should've done. Her version wasn't as good as Kimberly Locke's from Season 2, but it was aiight.

Diana Degarmo - She sang "Think". She was really good. The only thing was, that was the song that Fantastic Burrito idiot did for her top 100 audition right after she said her big lips talent flipping ocean thing. She was still awesome though.

I totally want Fantasia out, but if idiots vote her in, then Leah will do. I have no idea how they got they got there in the first place. Well, idiots voted Fantasia into the top 12, but Paula picked Leah for some dumbass reason which I think has something to do with pissing Simon off.

Starting now, every time I post I'm gonna pick a song of the day that I really like. Today it's The Moffatts "Crazy".

Okay, so American Idol is on tonight, so I'll be recapping the show later, but right now I want to talk about the ski trip the grade 8's went on on Friday. I had to get up at like 4:30, be at the school at 5, we left at 5:30, spent 2 hours driving up to Parksville where we stopped at A&W for breakfast, which was fun because I got to stare at Clayton, everyone keeps telling him I like him but he never believes anyone, and then we got back on the bus and drove for another 2 hours up to Mt.Washington, and on the way there Jordan called me a turd because I kept taking pictures of him. I said something to Shannon about Esquimalt, except I say "Es-gwe-malt" and it's "Es-sqi-malt" so she's like "What the hell are you saying?" and I was like "I'm not flipping FROM here, I don't know!!" and then she shut up.

So we got up there at about 9, rented our stuff (I put my snowboard boots on the wrong feet twice, then put them on before I put my ski pants on), then I went for lessons, fell down like a million times, fell in the ditch twice, got dragged along by the chair lift, froze my boots to my snowboard so I couldn't get it off for like 10 mintues, went back up to the lodge, took some pictures of the rental people, then went outside and took pictures.

Left at about 3pm, fell asleep in the middle of Dickie Roberts for about 45 minutes and woke up on the bus by myself in Parksville because none of those fleeps bothered to wake me up so I could go eat something, they just decided to sit there and stare at me and say how scary it was that I sleep with my eyes open and my mouth open. Seriously, when I woke up, one of them was like "Did you hear us talking about you?" I was like "What the flipping hell is wrong with you people?" and then Shannon was like "Jordan was looking at you". Seriously. I didn't even get to stare at Clayton again. Damn them.

Left Parksville at around 6, took more pictures of Jordan, watched School of Rock (such a cool movie), got insulted some more by Jordan, took some pictures of Shannon, it was like so dark, in Ladysmith I thought we were in Sydney, Shannon thought we were in Duncan which is closer but her and Jordan flipped out at me for saying that and I was like "Holy flipping Ocean people, I'm not FROM here, I can't tell the difference!!" which finally shut them up. Jordan made this totally mean joke about me, he was like "What's the difference between a brunette and trash? Trash gets taken out!" and I was like "Ummm...you were the one who took me out in the first place, freak!" and then he said that brunettes had black hair, and I was like "Umm, dude? I don't HAVE black hair", and he's like "Yes you do, you dye it, your hair is naturally black and so are your eyebrows" and Shannon's like "What Jordan, do you like, stalk her?" and he's like "Yeah, it's like, EVERY DAY" and I was like "OH MY GOD!!!" and I was like flipping out, and he's like "Rebecca, you know I was joking", which I so totally did.

Got back at the school at around 8, my bro Tim was there to pick me up. I got my pictures developed and Jordan looks SO hot, I have like 3 copies of his, one framed on my desk, one on my wall, and one on my computer.

Okay, sorry I kept you waiting about the results of American Idol for like 6 days, but yesterday my computer decided it was gonna be a piece of crap and not let me write so I couldn't. Okay, we'll start with the judges picks:

Randy: Jennifer Hudson - That's good, I like her. Yes, I know I called her a freak, but that was when I DIDN'T like her, hello?

Paula: Leah Labelle - What the freaking hell, seriously. That's so friggin messed up, I can't even say anything except I think Paula was high the night they had to pick people. Jesus H. Roman.

Simon: George Huff - Hahahah, oh my god that's so funny. George Huff is the best. Alistair Hayward is so happy, he's like obsessed with Matt Rogers and George Huff, they're his favourite top 12 people.

And America chose...JON PETER LEWIS!! I told you, I SO told you. I just knew if they chose Clay last year, they'd choose JPL this year, and they did.

So the top 12 is:
Diana Degarmo - She's cool. I like her.
Fantasia Barrino - Don't even fleeping ask about that stupid fleep.
Camile Velasco - Freak.
Matt Rogers - Hahaha oh my god he's so cool. Rose bowl man, rose bowl.
Latoya London - Freak. Screaming does not count as singing.
Amy Adams - I heart her! She's so awesome!!
John Stevens - EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!!!!!!!!!! Okay, I think you know how I feel about him.
Jasmine Trias - Ehhh. Take the friggin flower out of your hair.
Jennifer Hudson - I guess I like her. No, I do.
Leah Labelle - Paula is such a fleep for picking her. Like I said, I have no idea WHAT she was on that night. Leah's horrible and she never shuts up about her stupid Bulgarian pop star parents.
George Huff - HEEEE!!! SHEEEEEE! LEAN ON MEEEEE!!!! He's so cool.
Jon Peter Lewis - He's so hot!!! And awesome!!!

I so totally have to give honourable mention to those who never made the top 12 though they should've: Michael Keown, Nicole Tieri, Rodrigo Cortez, Ashley Thomas, Marque Lynch, Matthew Metzger, John Preator. Them and Matt Rogers, John Stevens, Amy Adams, and Jon Peter Lewis would SO make the BEST top 12 ever, but this'll have to do. It's got a few good people. And then people who are total shit and should NOT be there.

I love Clayton Akerman!! That's this guy at my school who obviously, I like. He so totally knows though, everyone keeps telling him, but he never believes anyone.

The first top 12 show is going to be on Tuesday, March 16, and on Wednesday, March 17 (The results show) CLAY AIKEN is performing "The Way" from his new single "Solitaire/The Way", due out in stores March 15. Oh yeah, I'm good.

Okay, so yesterday's show: Four people they kicked off before they got to sing were Marque Lynch (screw them! I'm gonna broadway singer you!), Lisa Leuschner, who I was really surprised but like whatever, Tiara Purifoy the flying nun, hahah freak, and Eric Yoder (Ouch, sorry mom). But the thing is, they said "You won't be singing on the show TONIGHT", not "You're going home", so I think any one of them (MARQUE), could be brought back as one of the judges picks (MARQUE). Okay, now for yesterday's recap.

Jon Peter Lewis - Heeeeheeeheeee. Okay seriously. He sang "A little less conversation" by Elvis. He danced and it was so funny. He's so staying.

Elizabeth Letendre - Ehhh...boring. She sang "The first time I ever saw your face".

Katie Webber - She sang "So Emotional". She was okay. Simon said she was like Jessica Simpson and would get more guy votes than girl votes that night, whatever that means.

George Huff - HEEEEEEEE!!!! SHEEEEEEEE! He sang "LEAN ON MEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!" His singing warmup is HEEEEE!!!! It's so funny. He bounced around a lot, he's so funny, but he kinda reminds me of Fantasia Barrino except his bouncing is better.

Susan Vulaca - She was boring. She sang "I will survive", which I hope she doesn't because she's cheap.

Matt Metzger - Ummm...I can't diss him because he's hot. But seriously, he WAS a little bit boring, but allright.

Leah Labelle - She sang "Let's stay together". She's cheap, and ugly too.

Jennifer Hudson - She sang "I believe in you and me". I don't hate her as much as I used to. They were all dissing her dress, which I really liked. Out of all the girls, I want her to get through.

Okay, so I'm gonna be back tomorrow or later to tell you who got in. Hopefully Marque will come back as a Judges pick. Haha George. Whoops. I think I'll call Calum now. Only 14 minutes till the show?

Okay, so sorry I kept you waiting for like two days to find out who got in, but I'll tell you now: No wait, I have to tell you something first. When I said that the words to John's song were "Give up", I was wrong. It WAS "gives out". Okay, so the next two people in the top 12 ARE: Jasmine Trias, which is kinda annoying but I think I'm starting to like her now maybe a bit...and...JOHN STEVENS!!!! I was so happy I was crying, I could not believe it. I did not think he would get in, let alone have the most votes of the night, which he did, 28% to be exact. The 3rd one in the top 3 was George Huff, but he didn't make it.

And the wildcards ARE:
Jennifer Hudson - What the freaking hell is that? We don't NEED stupid turkey wrap back, she was as boring as wallpaper. PLAIN wallpaper. PEELING plain wallpaper. TOTALLY...okay, you get the wallpaper bit. But seriously, who chose this freak?

Leah Labelle - Ummm...sure.
Lisa Leuschner - That's good.

Katie Webber - See, what did I tell you? I'm glad.
Jon Peter Lewis - YES!!! Mr.Pensalesman is back!!

Matthew Metzger - That's really good. At least one of the Bleach Boys is back. That basically means Michael Keown didn't get brought back. Neither did ScooterGirl (Nicole Tieri), or Bao Viet, or Rodrigo Cortez.

Marque Lynch - That's great too. He's awesome.
George Huff - Haha, that's so funny. Paula picked him, he's great like I said.

Tiara Purifoy - Ummm....right. Simon picked her based on previous performances. I would've thought he'dve picked John Preator. Yes, I know he'dve is not a word. If you're not dumb you'll know it means he would have. Jeez.

Susan Vulaca (pronounced Vulatha, with the C turning into th just like Paulini Curuenavuli from Australian Idol) - Ummm...okay there. Randy picked her, I have no idea why. I mean, she already won ARIZONA IDOL, so why does she have to win this? What, there's no prize for Arizona Idol?

Elizabeth Letendre - That's okay. I just hope she does a better song in the Wildcard round.
Eric Yoder - My mom was so shocked she just sat there with her mouth hanging open for like 5 minutes before she was actually like "OH MY GOD". She loves him. I hated him at first because I thought he was Clay copy, but he's allright now. He looks really good in the Wildcard picture, which you can find on www.aibyrequest.com or www.idolonfox.com.

So, that was Wednesday's show. I'll be back on Tuesday to recap that show. Oh yeah, I'm so good. Go Josh Groban. Ummm....sure.

Okay, Group 4: (We don't find out the results for another hour, so this is just my review of last night)

Susan Vulaca - Cheap. She sang "Unbreak My Heart". BOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING!!!!!!!!!

John Preator - He was good. I hated him so much until I heard him, but that was for the same reason I hated Matt Metzger till I heard him: they didn't forget the words in the group and Michael Keown did. John sang "What love is all about". The first line was at first totally incomprehensible(that's just a word I made up that means you can't figure out what he's singing), but he sounds like a Backstreet Boy so I like him.

Heather Piccini - She reminds me of Cosima, so I really like her. She sang "New Attitude". Simon said she was ugly when she sang. Ehh, kinda true. At first I thought she was singing "I've got a new pair of shoes". Don't diss me man, I've got bad hearing.

John Stevens - EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!! He is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT!!! But anyway, he was totally awesome at that Billy Joel song "Always a woman to me". I so did not think he could remember all the words but he did! Well, he did mess up a few times by saying "She only reveals what she wants her to see", which sounds SO wrong, and then he went "She never gives out" when it's "gives up". But compared to how badly he messed up in Pasadina, Hollywood Auditions, he was great.

Jasmine Trias - God, she's annoying. She says Hawaii like it's "Ha-wa-ee". Ugh, and she had a stupid little flower in her hair and in her bio it showed her giving the rest of the group HULA LESSONS. HULA LESSONS. HULA. LESSONS. Jeez. She sang "Run to you", and I just have one more thing to say about her: Go home little girl, and learn how to sing in tune.

George Huff - "I'm here! I'm here!" If you saw the show you'd get that. If not, borrow the tape from me. He was really good, even for doing a Clay song (Always and Forever) R&B style. He's really funny too. I'm pretty sure he'll make it. I hope the others don't get huffy if he beats them. Haha, get it, huffy? George Huff? George Huff and...ugh, never mind!

Lisa "Train Car Mouth" Wilson - BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! So very, very bad. She sang "Come to my window", and it was the worst rendition I have EVER heard. Seriously. I don't know how she got in for hanging out with stupid Alan Bitchson. Whoops, Ritchson. She had the biggest mouth I have EVER Seen. Simon said you could fit a car in there. It's true.

Tiara "Water Filter" Purifoy - Seriously, her name sounds like a water filter. She was good. Her version of "I wanna dance with somebody" was better than Elizabeth Letendre, but not as good as Cosima's. Well, no one is as good as Cosima, but you get it. All the judges thought she was the best of the night, except Simon who said that her performance was a complete mess, whatever that means.

I'm not being racist, but it seems so weird that every week the final person is a black girl who they all like the best. Coincidence? I SO don't think so. SO.

The Wildcards are being announced at the end of tonights show, and one of them BETTER be Michael Keown. And I just totally messed up my computer, so I better run away before someone notices, but I'll be back later to tell you who got through and who are the wildcards. Oh, and if you want the songs from last night, www.the-erics.com can help you, but you have to join the message board first.

Okay, so I thought I'd fill you in on what's been happening on American Idol so far. I'll give each group's contestants and who got in:

Group 1: Diana Degarmo-Finalist in top 12, she's awesome, she always wears pink and black so I'm copying her.
Marque Lynch - He was really good, but he didn't get in. I don't think he'll be wildcard.
Ashley Thomas- She SO should've got in, but she didn't so I'm hoping for wildcard for her
Katie Webber - She didn't get in but American Idol phoned her and told her to get ready for wildcard so I guess she's coming back. She was allright, I kind of want her back.
Erskine Walcott- He was sweet-and-sour chicken and Simon wanted spaghetti bolognaise, so he didn't get in. It wasn't his faul, he just wanted to serve anybody who was hungry!
Jennifer Hudson: Boring Boring Boring, so she didn't get in. You should've seen the look she gave Matthew Metzger when he made the top 3 and she didn't. Total death stare.
Matthew Metzger: He was awesome, and he came so close to getting into the top 12, but he didn't. He's probably gonna be a wildcard though.
Fantasia Barrino - Finalist in top 12, HATE HATE HATE!!! She's such a stupid fantastic burrito. Don't ask.

Group 2: Matthew Rogers: Top 12 Finalist - He's so awesome!! He played in the Rose Bowl. His dad is so cool!!
Briana Ramirez-Rial - Ughhhh...don't even make me think about that gay-girl-suspender-wearing freak!! She didn't get in, thank god.
Noel Roman: He's hot, but he sucked, so he didn't make it, but probably wildcard.
Kara Master: Who the hell was she anyway?? She sucked anyway, and didn't make it.
Jesus Roman: He REALLY sucked, and made his brother Noel sound good!
Camille Valasco - Top 12, but hate!!!
Lisa Leuschner - Top 3, but didn't make top 12, though she was really good.
Marisa Joy - She was good, but didn't make it.

Group 3: Elizabeth Letendre - She did okay, but she didn't make it.
Eric Yoder - He acted too much like Clay and didn't make it.
Amy Adams - Top 12 finalist YAY!!! She's so super!!!
Jon Peter Lewis - Top 3 but didn't make top 12, but he is SO HOT and he was really good at doing Elton, so I think Mr.Pensalesman might be back for wildcard.
Charly Lowry, of the lumbric tribe - She was too big on the indian pride thing so she didn't make it.
Jonah Moananu - He sang this really messed up song that I think he made up himself and he was too much like Ruben so he didn't make it.
Leah Labelle - Ehhh...she was okay, but when she didn't make it she glared at Jon Peter for making the top 3. It was like Jennifer Hudson a la Matt Metzger. Vicious.
Latoya London - Top 12 Finalist...she screams too much, but I prefer her to fantastic burrito idiot.

Group 4 hasn't performed yet, but here are the contestants: Susan Vulaca, she's cheap. Song: Unbreak my heart
John Preator, HATE!!!
Heather Piccinini, she's cool. Song: New Attitude
John Stevens, LOVE!!! Song: Always a woman to me
Jasmine Trias, never heard her. Song: Run to you
George Huff, ehhh he's okay. Song: Always and Forever
Lisa Wilson, don't really like her.
Tiara Purifoy, don't know. Song: Dance with somebody

The reason that I know their songs already is because Tuesday's show is taped Saturday and someone on a message board I go to went to the taping and gave us some spoilers. I love the song John is doing, and I love him so much!! I can't believe George is doing Clay's audition song, that is such a bad risk. Only Clay can do Clay songs. With the exception of Unchained Melody, which Michael Keown did better. EVERYBODY has done I wanna dance with somebody, it's so worn out. The only good performance of that was Cosima De Vito on Australian Idol, and the original with Whitney Houston.

Tomorrow they're doing a whole show about the bad singers from the auditions like showing them and all that, and William Hung is coming to perform on the stage!! I can't belive he has a record deal. It's just so weird!!

So here's what happening on American Idol: The best are John Stevens VI, Amy Adams, Lisa Leuchner, Matthew Rogers, and Jon Peter Lewis, who all made it to the top 32. The people who they kicked off in the top 117 who are SO gonna be brought back as wildcard are Nicole Tieri(ScooterGirl from New York), Michael Keown(the guy from New York who sang for the pope), Sarah Silva, and Bao Viet, and Sonny Kapu maybe too.

I'm listening to Delta Goodrem, "Running Away" right now and just waiting for Calum to phone. Oh darn, I wrote about him. Oh well. I hate Jordan. No, I don't. Whatever, it doesn't matter anyway because it's over. Well, I made it over. I phone him and his brother picked up the phone and when he went to give it to Jordan, Jordan asked who it was and when he found out he hung up, so I called back and left a message saying that we were done because there was no point in carrying on like this when it's obvious he doesn't care, I mean well he does but if he can't even say it then I can't really live like that, and I told him it was obvious what we had couldn't come back to us and it was never going to be normal again, so we were finished, forever. Unless of course he didn't want to be, which I'm sure he did. That's exactly what I said, really. I cried into my pillow for about 10 minutes, and then went on the computer, played Cosima De Vito's "I give my love to you" and cried some more. Whatever. It's not like I'll actually get OVER him, I'll just keep scheming new plans to try and get him back until one actually WORKS. I mean I've done it twice before so I'm sure I can do it again. Until then, I have John Stevens VI. Well, that was a nice two year relationship. And I only got one lousy kiss out of it. Nah, it was wonderful.

Now I'm watching Clay Aiken's video of "I could not ask for more". I don't really know WHY, probably because I'm just trying to make it make me feel better, oh and because he's hot. Mmm, Clay.

Okay, so yesterday on American Idol 3 was SO annoying! They were doing auditions in San Francisco, and there was this guy named Rodriguez that came in and he was really good, but only Randy and Simon were there to judge because Paula was sick, and so they both thought he was okay until Simon asked "What would you do if you won and I gave you $1,000,000?" and the guy's like "I'd give it to charity, put some in business, and give more to charity" except Simon wanted to hear that he'd spend it on himself because that's what Simon likes to hear because he's a greedy pig, and then so after the guy told him what he'd do with the money Simon's like. "Okay then, it's a no", and I was SO mad because he was SO good and Simon changed his mind after one little question and plus Rodriguez was crying afterwards so it was so sad which made me even more mad!

And plus they only let like 3 guys in out of the whole thing and like 15 girls, which was probably only because Paula wasn't there. They've gone through 5 audition cities(New York, Atlanta, Houston, LA, and San Francisco), and so far they've all been horrible, except for a few people like Michael Keowne and Kiira and Sarah Silva and John Steven VI, who all remind me of AI2 peole, especially Kiira she's exactly like Carmen, and tonight they're doing Honolulu, which is on at 8/7central on CTV and/or FOX, so ya'll watch it, okay?

So...Hannah and Gavin are here, but not right now because they're out downtown with Martha and Tim and Patrick, and I'm just here talking to Sandy, well right now she went offline to do something, but she made me promise to stay on so I will. I have to go to the mall tomorrow or at least soon, because I have lik $48 and I NEED a new outfit, all my clothes suck except for the new shirts I got for Christmas and the sweater I got from Martha yesterday which is SO nice. I also got a new make-up kit from her as well, which has my favorite colour eyeshadows in it, Grey and Green. Well I've never really worn them before, but Jenny Gear wore green eyeshadow at the Canadian Idol Finale and she looked great, and Diana Karazon wore gray eyeshadow at the World Idol show, and she looked great, and I wore the gray eyeshadow today, and I looked great, so it's all good.

So there's gonna be this thing called Claremont Idol at Claremont High School, and I think I might try to sing in it, but I'm not sure because someone said the auditions are over, but that would be really weird because we only heard about it like 4 days ago so it's kinda short warning, but Claremont's known about it for ages, so I think it might be just for them that the auditions are over.

Now I'm talking to my sister, Sandy, and my other sister on MSN. I should call Jordan at like 7, even though he won't answer because he like never does, but whatever, I should try it anyway.

Okay, so I won't really be writing about Calum anymore, because it's not really safe, because there's like stalker people out there who want to know stuff about him and I'm just totally blasting everything out, so. I might be saying that I talked to him, but I'm not doing anymore of this "and he was like, and I was like" stuff, like I won't be pasting the whole conversation.

Okay, so I talked to Calum on MSN today, and it went like this:

(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: hi, how are you?
Burt says: hey
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: i can't find a good display picture...that's the only one i have of Guy and it sucks
Burt says: o
Burt says: ic
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: i knew you were going to say that
Burt says: o
Burt says: lol
Burt says: why
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: lol because that's like all you ever say on MSN
Burt says: o
Burt says: lol
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: i can't wait till we go back to school it's gonna be so fun
Burt says: yeah sooooo much fun
Burt says: ...
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: what, you don't like school?
Burt says: o i love school i just like vacations more
Burt says: especially christmas
Burt says: :)
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: yeah it's fun...you are so lucky you still have another year left at Royal Oak, i'm seriously gonna hate leaving
Burt says: o
Burt says: it's a good school
Burt says: that's for sure
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: yeah...ms.robertson is probably one of the best teachers there, and she's also a really good friend
Burt says: i like school
Burt says: in her class
Burt says: how did your brother take the news about that person that died?
Burt says: my butt rox
Burt says: jk
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: oh well he was really upset that Norm didn't get to see the snow last night
Burt says: fdyha
Burt says: sorry my stupid cousin did that
Burt says: oh that sucks
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: yeah...i couldn't believe how much of it we got last night
Burt says: it was fun
Burt says: g2g
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: okay
Burt says: i have to go
Burt says: bye
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[So here I stand, just as I am(f):[ says: bye

And then he kept pressing the space bar and hitting enter so there would be a blank space and finally I was like, "What are you doing?" and he wrote "dinner, cya" so then I wrote "okay bye". Norm is Jay's husband, and Jay is the woman that my brother Tim works for. Yesterday I was checking the messages on our machine and I got a message from Tim saying to call him at Melissa's house, and then I listened to the messages from Jay and her dad saying that Norm had died and that they needed Tim over there, but I thought Tim was at Melissa's house so I totally freaked out and called Calum and was like what am I supposed to do because I thought Tim wasn't at Jays and Calum didn't know what to tell me and then he had to go because he had company, but then he phoned me back like two minutes later to make sure I was okay about Norm and Jay, which was SO nice of him, really, and he said to phone Jay to see what she needed, and then he said about how sorry he was about Norm, and then we were talking about who won World Idol, which was Kurt Nilsen from Norway, and how good Elton John was at the show. I forgot to tell him that Victoria Beckham from Spice Girls performed at World Idol too, but never mind, I'll tell him next day.

And then later I found out that the message from Tim when he was at Melissa's house was from a few days ago at New Year's, and I had thought it was from the same day that Jay had phoned and that Tim was at Melissa's when he was supposed to be at Jay's, which is why I freaked out, you know? Okay I'm done, I just had to tell you that.

EEEK!!! Okay sorry, but I just talked to Calum, and first I said, "Okay, so the World Idol Results show, Elton John is going to be there, like performing" and he's like, "Oh really? That's really cool, he's awesome, I love Elton John" and I was like, "Yeah, me too" and then he said, "Hey, I was thinking, do want to start MSNing?" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like "Because I was thinking it would be like easier, like just in case I was in Vancouver, then we wouldn't have to worry about long distance, you know?" and I was like, "Yeah, that's a good idea" and he's like "And also, I'm not always near a phone, but I'm almost always near a computer, so like, we could talk on there, like just in case, you know?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Actually, I'm right by a computer right now" and I was like, "Oh yeah?".

And then he's like, "So what's your email?" and I told him and he's like "It says that it can't be added" and then he repeated the address to see if he got it right and he had but for some reason it wouldn't work, so he's like "Why don't you add me?" and I was like, "Yeah okay I just gotta sign in" and it was taking forever so I was like, "Yeah, I'm trying to sign in right now it's just taking forever, I have so many people on my list, I have like 132 people" and he's like, "You have 132 people on your MSN?! That's crazy!" And I was like, "Yeah I know" and he's like, "I don't have that many people, because I only just got it back, because my computer was like really crazy, and so I like just got it back, but I'm trying to add more people" and I was like, "Yeah" and then so I added him and he accepted me.

And then he was like, "So we can still phone each other, but it's like if someone needs to use the phone then we can like talk on here, and if someone needs the computer then I can phone you, or you can phone me, or whatever you know?" and I was like, "Yeah", and then we got off the phone and he came on MSN and I messaged him and this is how the convo went:

(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: hi
Burt says: Hello
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: you have no idea what "Ensani Ma Binsak" means, do you?
Burt says: no!
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: it's Arabic for "Forget me but I won't forget you"...it's the name of Diana Karazon's winning song in Lebanon Idol
Burt says: g2g
Burt says: bye
(f):[Cossie(f):[Ensani Ma Binsak(f):[2 days till World Idol results show!! Guy's gonna win World Idol!!(f):[ says: bye

And then he went offline and then I started talking to Adam, that guy from New Zealand who wants to be friends with Calum and me. Well me and him ARE friends but we're not sure about Calum yet. I mean me and Calum are friends, DUH, but what I mean is I don't know if Adam and Calum are friends, you know? But it is just so cool that now Calum is on my MSN which means that I don't have to phone him like all the time, not that I do anyways, but he said that he's almost always near a computer so we can talk more often on MSN then we do on the phone, although he said that he'll still phone me sometimes and I can still phone him and all that stuff, so. Only 2 days till World Idol results show and Guy BETTER win, seriously because if he doesn't I will seriously cry like I did with Carmen Rasmusen and Clay Aiken and Cosima de Vito...if Guy doesn't win I want it to be Jamai or Diana, but Diana probably won't win because her fan base isn't big enough, and I'm not sure about Jamai, but I don't need to worry about that because like I said GUY is going to win!!

Okay, so I just talked to Calum about an hour ago(I phoned him, he wasn't home, he called me back), and it was like this: I picked up the phone right, and was like, "Hello?" and he was like, "Hi" and I just wish you guys could hear the way he says 'Hi', it's so cool, and so then I was like, "Hi" and he's like, "Hi" and I was like, "Hi" and he's like, "How are you?" and I was like "Good" and he's like, "Oh yeah? How was your Christmas?" and I was like, "It was good" and then I was like, "So um, do you know like, any guys named Adam that are like, 17 years old?" and he's like, "No" and then so I was like, "Yeah, that's what I thought, because like, okay, this guy sent me this email today, right, and he said that he had been to my website, where like, I've written like, a tiny bit about you sometimes, right, and he wanted me to give him like, your phone number, and I like, wouldn't" and he's like, "Thank you very much, that's awesome" and I was like, "I don't know, it just like, kinda scared me" and he's like "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, it's so weird how you like, have these people" and he's like, "Yeah well, there are some people like that".

And then I asked him, "What do you do if someone calls you, like a lot, and sometimes you just don't want to talk to them?" and he's like, "I don't really know" and then so I was like, "Because there's like this girl, and she's kinda my friend, and she phones me every single day, and sometimes I want to talk to her, but it's really annoying" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, and sometimes, she phones like three times a day" and he thought that was so funny, and then I was like, "But I don't really want to tell her I don't want to talk to her, because that's kinda mean, and I like already lie to her, like if I don't want to talk to her anymore, I say I have to go when I don't" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "So what do you think I should do?" and he's like, "I don't know...that's a tough one...if it starts weird, then just like...I don't know, that's hard!" and then I was like, "And I know that's what it must be like with you, because I do phone you like, a lot" and he's like, "No, it's okay" and I was like, "Because that's why Alistair like, totally hated me, because I phoned him like every day" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "And I didn't know why he hated me until like, he left,and then there was nothing I could do" and he's like, "Oh" and then I was like, "So if I'm ever phoning you too much, you can just tell me to stop and I will" and he's like, "Okay, but you're seriously not phoning me too much at all" and I was like, "Okay, that's good".

And then I was like, "I haven't told you about Jordan yet, have I?" and he's like, "Who's Jordan?" so then I told him everything, and at the end of it all he's like, "So do you still like him?" and I was like, "Yeah" and he's like, "Then tell him that" and I was like, "Yeah, I guess I should. I phoned Jordan last night, by the way, just to wish him Merry Christmas and to tell him to check the message that I left for him on his machine the other night.


And then I was like, "For Christmas, I got like, Clay's Cd" and he's like, "What?" and I was like, "Clay?" and he's like, "Oh" and I was like, "Like, Aiken? And I got Ryan Malcolm's, and I also got Ruben's" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "And I was really surprised that like, I got that, because like, no one knew that I wanted it, and when I did get it people were like, surprised because they like, thought I hated Ruben, which I did, like I totally used to, like when it was like him against Clay, I like totally hated him, but like, the stuff he sings now, is totally nothing like the stuff he did on the show", and he's like, "Yeah".

And then I was like, "That guy who emailed me, at first I thought it was Duncan," and he's like, "Well, he knows my phone number, so" and I was like, "Yeah I know, that's not what I meant, like I thought maybe it was him pretending to be someone else, like seeing if I would do it?" he's like, "Oh" and I was like, "Well, do you think he would do that?" and he was like, "Well I don't think it was him, he wouldn't do that, it's doubtful".

And then I was like, "Did you watch World Idol?" and he's like, "No, was it good?" and I was like, "Yeah it was, why didn't you watch it?" and he's like, "Oh, because I had lots of family over, so" and I was like, "My brother and sister were voting when they're like, not even interested in that kind of stuff" and he's like, "Voting?" and I was like, "Yeah, but they were like mostly making fun of everyone, and when they were watching it, during my favorite who wasn't singing in English, and during her whole performance, they were going hysterical at the language she was singing in" and he's like, "Oh yeah" and then I was like, "And they also hated my other favorite from Australia, and my other one from Netherlands they thought was gay, because he kinda looks like that" and he's like, "Yeah well, looks can be mistaken" and I was like, "Yeah I know, and they think that Clay's gay as well" and he's like, "Oh really?".

And I was like, "Yeah, because my dad bought me an Elton John CD for Christmas, right?" and he's like, "I love Elton John, he's so cool" and I was like, "Yeah I know, me too" and he's like, "He's so...he's...he's just awesome" and I was like, "I know, but my brother and sister think he's gay too" and he's like, "Well he is" and I was like, "Yeah I know, but that's why they hate him" and he's like, "Oh really?" and I was like, "Yeah, like my brother said that I can't listen to it while anybody else is in the house" and he's all surprised and he's like, "Oh REALLY?" and I was like, "Yeah well, I'm not going to listen, but like when I tried to show it to them they're like 'No, get it away from us, that's horrible', and stuff like that it was so weird", and he's like, "Oh yeah".

And then I started saying like really freakish things because I couldn't think of anything to say, and then I was like, "Because you're not saying anything" and he thought that was funny and he's like, "Well my Christmas was good, I got a game cube, so it was cool...it was good, good Christmas", and I was like, "Yeah, so was mine".

And then I heard his mom say, "Dinner's ready!", and then he's like, "Okay, well I gotta get going, so I'll talk to you later!" and I was like, "Okay" and he's like, "Bye" and I'm like, "Bye".

When I first phoned him and he wasn't home, I talked to his mom and it went like this: She said that he wasn't home but he would be in like two minutes he was just on his way, and she asked if she should get him to call me and I said yes, and she was like, "So does he have your phone number?" and I was like, "Yeah he does" and she's like, "You know what? I'm just going to take it down again, things have been really crazy in this house, you know" and I was like, "Oh yeah" so I gave it to her again, and after I was laughing because both her and Calum and his dad use the word crazy for everything and I was like, "These people and their crazyness!" and I had talked to her at like 7, and it was like 7:30 and he still hadn't phoned yet so I totally thought he wasn't going to, but he did at like 7:40, so I was really happy, because no one was home and I was blaring Clay Aiken's CD so it was all good.

After Clay I watched some Powerpuff Girl episodes on our new DVD player with my new PPG DVD, so that was fun, and then I listened to Ryan and his CD rocked too just like Clay's. I wonder if I should tell him that I like the Powerpuff Girls? Probably not, he'd be like "Freak". Oh darn it, I forgot to ask him if he considers us friends, but it's kinda obvious he probably does because why else would he talk to me and phone me?

Anyway, I have to put on the Narrator, and plus my mom wants to go on to transfer pictures from our digital camera onto the computer, because she just took some pictures of my cat and my sister and me being freaks, so.

Okay, so we just finished opening presents a while ago, and I got some really cool stuff. I got 3 DVD's, because Father bought us a new DVD player, and my DVD's were: Powerpuff Girls(YES, I do like them), Spy Kids 2:The Island of Lost Dreams, and The Witches. I got some chocolates and a Narnia book from my mom(C.S.Lewis), and a T-Shirt from my sister, a tape from my brother so I can record World Idol tonight, and a scarf from my mom, and from my dad I got 3 Cd's: Elton John(Goodbye Yellow Brick Road), Ryan Malcom(Home), and Clay Aiken(Measure of a Man). It really surprised me that I got Ryan's CD from my dad, because that's what I had asked my sister Melissa for, so I thought I was going to get it from her, but then just listen what happens next.

So then Melissa comes over, and gives me her presents, and I could see one of them was a CD, and so of course I thought it was Ryan's but I open it, and it's RUBEN'S!! I totally freaked out because I had no idea how she knew that I wanted that, and plus I never thought I'd get it like I said yesterday, so then I asked her how she knew, and she said that a little elf told her, so of course I know that means my mom. I don't know how my dad knew that I liked Elton John, probably because I listen to the Ocean all the time, which plays stuff like that. Patrick and Teresa totally freaked out at the CD because they both think he's gay, which he is, but that's okay, and Patrick told me that I was never allowed to listen to it around anyone in the house, but I was like whatever, so. I'm listening to "Soulful" right now it's so cool, my bro Tim is going to love it he loves rap and this is what that is, totally.

And then I opened my other stuff from Melissa, which was a V-neck t-shirt which is blue, which is cool, and also she got me a Canadian Idol T-Shirt, which is really cool because I'm totally gonna wear it to school I don't care what people say, and then I'm wearing right now.

I got up first at like 8, and then I went on the computer, and then at like 10 I went into my mom's room and watch Much's Most Wanted: Top 20 hottest guys of the year. Jake Gellyenhall was #10, he's from the movie October Sky which me and my mom really like, and Orlando Bloom was number 9, and he's cool, and Ashton Kutcher was #3, and I guess he's allright but I don't really like him that much, and Justin Timberlake was #1, which really sucked because he is SO not hot. Clay should've been number 1 but he wasn't even on the list! He is so going to be next year. Last night they had the top 20 girls, like Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen were #18, and I'm not sure if Hilary Duff was on the list because I didn't finish watching it, but she probably wasn't because she hasn't really been around for that long, even though she's been like everywhere over the past year, so she might've been, I don't know.

And now Ruben's singing, "Flying Without Wings", which of course was his winning song, and of course it's awesome. If you guys think I don't like Clay anymore, you're such a lie. I totally do, and I'm totally going to listen to his CD later, I just like Ruben all of a sudden now, because his new style is so awesome, and I know that Calum doesn't like him, but I'm sure if he heard this new CD he would, so I have to like force him to listen to it, because you all know I can do that, right? I have to phone him tomorrow to tell him all what of I got. Calum I mean, not Ruben. I know I'm not making any sense right now, but that's because it's all so of Christmas, so I like totally wouldn't be, you know? I have to ask Calum if he considers us friends, because if he does that would so cool, because then we could be like Lizzie and Gordo, except there would be no Miranda, but you know we don't need one because it like totally doesn't matter.

And now Melissa is like totally dumping chocolates on me from my bag, but that's okay. Ruben is almost over. Okay, in the book I'm reading, "Charlie Wilcox's Great War", which is the second Charlie Wilcox book, Charlie tells Claire about the expression, "Carpe Diem", and later she tries to say it but she says "Crap Demon", and when I read that I was going so hysterical because it was just so funny. Darn it, now I can't move the mouse because it's covered with chocolates. I have to go to the bathroom, and when I get back the chair will be gone, so I should go. World Idol at 8 on CTV(Channel 9)!!